hoho...nye's nearing!ahaha...so happy!its gonna b 2005 soon and that means one step closer to 2006 my ord yr!that's like how long man!whahaha....anywayz,yes!more troubles in camp today!this one and onli indian smoker in my plt is giving us hell lotsa trouble!his very Chao keng!everytime training fall out giving many many reasonS!!!wat flu wat backache...and guess wat...he wanted to try to skip guard duty also lolz!how landiao!whahaha...anywayz,for all the trouble he have given us,his been rewarded with a military charge today!his gonna see my 2ic tml for the verdict!i seriously hope he will not stay in my plt anymore!u can't imagine the anger in us esp when we return to bunk from training to see him sleeping in bed!this is so atrocious!everyone's so frustrated with this guy!his been testing the system too much man!he deserve something bad man!then wat's more!his been telling our section commanders that his bunk mate keep suaning him and cannot accept him and so he wish to change bunk!FOR WAT THE HELL MAN!!!everyone's thinking the same way man...it's not gonna help no matter which bunk u go!and i feel that his lucki that his already with his same batch of ppl liaoz...so serg was like asking ard whose bunk got empty beds or something like that...then one of my bunk senior pointed out that there's one bed in our bunk!then u noe WAT!!!?>?serg suggested putting that man in my BUNK !!! #(*097698^%& can u believe it?that guy is realli asking for more trouble lolz...so serg came to my bunk and asked if we got any objections and off course everyone sounded off with a loud NO!!!N....O... NO!!!wat do u expect if the onli junior in the bunk which is MI myself do not wish to hav him in our bunk?do u seriously think that the seniors want him?they seriously dun hav a good impression of him lolz!whahaha....then we were like telloing serg that if that guy were to b in this bunk,we will not onli torture him mentally but physically also lolz!he better not head for our bunK!....anywayz,today had our COG rehearsal lahz...as usual,tiring but luckily today not so hot!the band realli cmi lolz...suddenly fast and slowly slow!!!this time round,im very lucky to b in the OLD GUARDS squad which means i will march from inside istana to istana entrance to carry out the parade then march towards PS then get back to our camp from there!its so much shorter a distance to march as compared to NEW GUARDS!!!imagine marching from hereen to istana!its so freaking long and tiring esp when u hav to hold on to the weapon!that's not all...aft which they will hav to march from the istana entrance uphill to the other side of istana to get back to camp!!!damn tiring can!the first time i did i almost had a cramp becos we din expect that its so xiong!whahaha....anywayz,gotta rest earli tonite!tml is my 3 ambassador prestige guard ceremony at istana lolZ...Damn sian!....lan diaoz...tell u guys more tml...anywayz,im realli interested to do my part for those that's been affected by the tsunami and quake!i've frenz thinking of ways to help!DEAR ALL...pls do ur part man!once i got anythings that i can ask for ur help!do lend a hand pls!!!...i'll update u guys asap!and as for those who hav any idea or hav approach any organisation to help liaoz can grab mi along also!!!keeep mi informed kZ...

oh my god...things haven been turning out the way its suppose to b these few days...i'm seriously getting so frustrated and upset so easily!pressure from army,frenz and more imptly family!seriously need sometime to calm my nerves and release some steam!there's so much things to do in camp also...so tight schedule!COG(Change Of Guards) rehearsals then PG(Prestige Guards) rehearsals coming my way!!!its extremely frustrating and tiring especially when u're expecting a short and comfortable work week this week due to NYE and stuff!its not realli difficult to cope lah...but then its juz damn boring to do these rehearsals again and again under the damn hot sun!!!

As for pressure from frenz,i've received smses that goes...wat hav u been doing!u've not been coming out with us for a long time!!!!....its heartbreaking to see such smses but i've been trying very hard to pls everyone!im practically out everyday...pls understand dearies!i'll try to go out with u guys more often!anywayz,hope u all understand that something's realli not rite at the moment and pls BEAR with it!

it's damn frustrating to come back today to get shouted at by my mum!she's like so negative can...recently she juz hurt her back and dunno wat the hell the freaking idiotic doc told her,she's gotta rest for at least 2 weeks!!!and wat angers mi is that my mum keep looking on the bad side that she might be paralyse or something!then keep shouting at mi...pls lolz...im already very depress deep down and to think that i come home to get shouted at and to hear abt all this freaking bad news?i tried not to fight back lahz...since she's like twice my age can??gotta do something liaoz...so did so laundry and dishwashing for her!hope she get well soon lahz...but hope she dun anyhow throw temper also lolz!im sure she juz dun no that im depressed cos i dun show it!pls be abit more sensitive man!anywayz,looks like these coming 2 weeks gotta come home straight to get dinner for her and help her with some house work liaoz!no choice...

hmm,bought today's papers and saw the after reports of the tsunamis disaster thingy!its so heartbreaking to read on the report of this family that's in phuket that lost her youngest daughter!i feel for the family and hopefully her mum will get over it soon...toking abt tsunamis and quakes,i m realli freaking interested in such topics especially when its gotta do with geography!boy...u wont noe how much i loved geo man!too bad din pursue it durin my As!!!anywayz,now also not bad...got a course which i think require some geo instinct and stuff as a environmental engineer!haven seen a tsunami or feel a quake before!BUT...i've seen a cyclone before when i was on my way in a kayak during my southern island expeditiON!the power of nature is juz too overwhelming for man to handle...pls stop all the destructions we're doing on earth cos we may live to suffer from our actions!even if we dun,i'll definitely not want my descendants to suffer in our hands...pls save MOTHER NATURE!!!haven been getting close to nature for such a long time liaoz...im feeling so tire living in this urban lifestyle!!!pls get mi OUT!!!sitting by the beach listening to the waves is one of relaxing!it would b better if u could get a full view of the clear sky...pls take mi away........

gotta stop blogging liaoz...surfing the web to find a decent digi cam lolz...damn sianz,its so diff to find one that hav the specs that i wan together with a nice design...wat's going on with these cams man!!!anyone any suggestions?whahaha....looking forward to nYe!!!.....cya mumbo yandao chio bus...whahaha

heyO!back to blogging once again!anywayz,today's my off day lah!damn boring,din realli fully utilise my off to do something special!actualli got lotsa ideas but no one to carry out with mi!last nite tot of going to bkt timah nature reserve walk walk abit then mayb trek back to the HSBC treetop trail thingy...then this morning suddenly felt like going for 2 movies(kung fu and national treasure)but then no one's ard to watch it with mi!whahah...lan diaoz!then was like chatting with ling on some lame games we should play on nye...that will all hav to depend on zj whether he's gonna take the idea le!whahaha...gurantee its gonna b hell lotsa fun man!anywayz,since both plans can't work,i stayed home to do some cleaning lahz ++ typing testi for some ppl ++ preparing my comp for formatting!gotta do lotsa back up!!!damn tire saY!practically,today nothing much also lahz...juz too busy by all those tasks for mi to do some reflections!but then,gotta noe this very very sad blog from my frenz lolz...its @ www.dyingis.blogspot.com
it some how touches my heart reading that blog cos Grace displayed the power of a focused and nv say die spirit even though she noes she's gonna end her life journey!anywayz,its a sad blog i muz say!but im thankful to grace for her sharing with us her experience which kinda will remind mi not to give up until the very last min!god bless her....

as for now...pretty sianz...tml muz bk in lolz!!!then thurs got this freaking 3 men ambassador coming to singapore and that means gotta mount parade for them!its freaking sian also becos 3 men means min 45 mins of waiting lolz!cos we hav to march in to this istana building and stand in front of it under the hot sun!some more the building is so reflective which make our eyes hurt when we stand there for too long!i predict its gonna b at least 1 hr of under the sun cannot move situation!lan diaoz!!!its also damn sianz esp when its the day before nye!!!and wat's more???i haben even prepare my uniform for it!damn sian to put back all the buttons lolz!and wat's even more sian is definitely going back camp for my spds warmups agaiN!!!but luckily its a short week man!i feel so weak now!whahaha...i've suddenly got the urge to get a digi cam lolz!muz buy then everytime when no one's available to go out with mi,i'll juz bring my digi cam go walk walk take foto take foto!miss those days man...there's so many places in singapore i haben been...i muz go source out man!its gonna be fun...my next pay is coming and i guess that should b the time i get a cam man!anyone got any suggestions???

it hurts to see news report on the tsunamis that hit asia hard!deaths and all...damn saddening especially when u're feeling quite lost and depressed at this point in time!if im not wrong,sometime last yr,i was also in thailand phuket ard this time!im glad i went last yr and din meet with any mishaps but i sincerely pray for the souls of those that's been affected!life still goes on and blah blah blahz...still gotta go back to camp tml!pls...someone pls help mi get out of this shit!i'll love to study now!i miss odac-king...pls free my soul!!!

hmmm...juz came back from yvonne's house!it was a nice dinner considering the fact the amount of effort the gals put in in cooking up such a meal for us!it's a pretty standard meal considering the fact that they had appet. followed by main course (under-cooked salmon) plus a nice desert put up by sophia!i appreciate it very much!thanxz gals...!!!muz say muz of u din realli changed lahz...except melissa lolz...muahaha...dyed her hair until i cant recognise sia!but generally,u gals have become more lady-like!!!guess wat...yvonne appears to b shock becos mi n wilson bought a box of chocolates for their family!!!actualli also nothing much lahz...go ur house muz definitely get something there wat...so more its CHristmas!!!aft dinner,sat ard tok rotz lolz...then sophia started asking mi n kenneth weird stuff like how now...got gf notz!i realli dun understand y but recently,there's juz too much toks on relationship and stuff!i'm sick n tired of it!cos im still aimless!!!whaha...dunno why also!juz feel damn sian but i played along with her lahz!tok tok tok...then everyone was like so involved in their various act. and melissa was like sitting one side stoning!cant realli understand her lahz...so soft spoken and quiet one!was asking her whether she's attached or something,then she said no and i was damn surprised!she's quite pretty and nice person but still available!juz unimaginable!wat's going on man!!!anywayz...realli admire the 3 couples in odac sia...still going strong!!!waha...can't stand teresa and shihan especially!!whaha...they're so SWEET~!anywayz,y m i thinking of all these when im suppose to think seriously wat course i should chose?should i reselect my course or should i stick with my current course?!?its so tough to make a decision when all u feel like doing is not to study and pursue wat u wan in life!nah...its impractical!!!pls WAKE UP ur IDEA!!!im so depressed now...juz simply can't settle down with so many things happening recently!its driving mi to nuts!!REALLY!!next impt issue is to quickly pass out from my spds training lahz!u wont noe how much i like playing ard with tat stupid weapon!i wanna mount squad now!i wanna be proud of wat im doing!MP isn't that slack at all guys!come for the warm up and u'll noe y!realli got alot of catching up to do with my frenz!i admit i dun realli catch up with ppl lolz...in fact my life is damn boring one!i've many frenz.....but then i dun usualli go out with them!i always stick to the same few ppl lolz...other than that,i will find my means and ways to stay home n rot?i cant stand this life anymore!seriously need to edit my lifestyle!anywayz,damn sianz as 2005 approaching!that means gonna b 20 next yr liao!y m i still single!m i missing out lotsa stuff?m i not doing wat im suppose to do?wat's happening to my life?wat's gonna happened to my personal goals?i'm so confused and lost...

hmmm...ystd went to my aunt's place for family dinner!big feast...lotsa nice stuff but wasn't realli interested to b there also...my sis din attend and my dad was damn pissed off!whaha...lan diaoz!luckily i go...if not surely got some people complain here and there!anywayz,saw my cousin's gf!!!she's pretty and brainy i guess...but very eng moh seh!!!speak england with that eng moh ascent!!!i guess she muz b so damn scare when she's with us for dinner cos my aunts all so cheena or dialect-kis!!!and i realli can't stand such gatherings anymore...all becos of my that cousin that brought his gf there,the rest of my aunt's and my granny keep asking mi and my other cousin to bring our gf for dinner the next time round!realli had a hard time trying to get out of there to meet up with mumborians!it was a long journey from my aunt's place to ikea!so along the journey,suddenly got some flashbacks of my life!the few significant changes or processes that i've made and went thru...e.g like going into not so good secondary school to going to going to cjc,joining cjc odac,joining the mumbo family,overseas expeditions,competitions etc...i realli felt grateful to whoever that's planning my pathway for mi!im glad to hav gone thru all these and im thankful and i appreciate those tht crossed my path!esp my mumbo family and my odac mates!these are those that realli went thru alot with mi!been neglecting odac mates for sometime liaoZ!!!it wasn't like that in the past!i could still remember the hell lot of gatherings we hav despite seeing one another like everyday in sch!Literally EVERYDAY!an that could b y we are the one of the strongest CCA in sch!odac mates are not juz cca mates whereby we meet for trainings and go for comp. and exp!we celebrate one another's bday,meet up for dinner or lunch aft sch,frequent weekends!they juz another version of my mumbo family besides that fact that mumbo dun get together everyday!!i juz wish i could hav a way to realli get these guys back together again somehow to do wat we like!Drown ourself back into the greens,challenging ourself,carry 15kg bagpack ran 3-5km...sleep deprivation etc!watch sunrise and sunset,cook together,sing-alongs on summit in the middle of the nite,watch shooting stars,help one another not onli during trainings but also studies!!!I REAALLI REAALLI do miss those days and u guys alot!i muz say we're tough!!!rest assured i'll try to come up with a way to reunite us again but i hope its not one sided man!

oki enough of odac...off course muz mention mumborians!!!these ppl all freaking whacky and crazy!!!enjoy their company off course!that's y i left my family dinner immediately aft i've finished my dinner~!its so paiseh can...but dun care like!like wat ling said at ikea,ren zhai xin bu zhai!!!met up with them at the ikea restuarant!nothing much at ikea thougH!aft ikea we went to this very romantic and nice place lolz!its near SAJC...GILLMAN village or something like taht...that place is very unique,nice lightings and settings!music also not too bad...and the price is affordable lolz!its machiam like going for those survivor show reward thingy lolz...got these nice nice huts and seatings...their furniture very nice also...some views are simply breathtaking in a sense!whaha...then had some wine and cocktail over there!as usual foto taking...then finale is TANBTT...(truth and nothing but the truth)!!!had some fun there...weird questions etc...the one that struck mi the most is something like do u prefer singlehood or do u hav any plans to get attached?personally i wouldn't admit that i would love to hav someone by my side...but the thing is the TIME is not rite...Army irregularities is the reason i guess!i mean...army dun realli give u freedom even though im officially an 8-5 personel!i've frenz in camp that's attached but it doen't appeal to mi rite now!cos these people started their relationship like even before army started!things kinda stablise and all...its not that im not confident...i m juz afraid its juz too difficult to keep the other party happy with so little time for them and wat's more it might juz b the starting stage where everythign is still very uncertain!yes i can bk out from 1730 onwards but i needa travel home and i need to rest earli to bk in the next mornign!time is juz too short to b commited now...mayb its still becos im like one of the xin jiao's in my company which means that i hav less bunk rest during norm office hrs!lets juz see if things might work out aft i become more lao jiao which means ard march onwards...from then,i'll become the 3rd laojiao!!but even though its 3rd,i might still hav lotsa privilleges due to the fact that all the 3 batch comes from the same plt!!!and also,my laojiao pretty gam with mi!some more the most senoir batch onli got 5 ppl,followed by 10 and then my batch got 14ppl!!!hope that by then will hav time for such things...come to think of it,i'm no longer a teen in a yr time...this is how sad!more responsibilities come my way and more stuff to think abt...my future...my goals...time to weigh my stuff and set my priorities!boy...u wont noe how i much i would love to go overseas trips!!!one day i realli wanna try to scale K2 and Kilimanjaro!that's my lifelong goal man!!!!i MUZ DO IT N I WILL DO IT!!!enough of blogging liaoz...gotta go for driving lessons liao!i've forgotten 7788 liaoz!!!so happy and excited to meet up with my odac mates later...peacce outZ****

hmmm...haben been blogging recently mainly becos very very busy!as u noe xmas season mah then gotta book out everyday juz to go ard look for suitable gifts for frenz and all.end up coming home pretty late and no time to blog lolz...all the time were used to prepare and buy gifts!so now onli update ya abt all the main events for the past few days.

Oki,first of all,im so happy to have passed my FIRST 100 counts of warmup for my ASPDS(advanced silent precision drill squad).wat's so happy abt passing it rite??actualli,this means that im leveling up to b a more lao jiao in my coy and that means more respect!another reason i feel happy is becos this warmup is suppose to b one of the toughest training i will receive in my NS life!usual day warmup is like onli 50 counts MAX and to do the first 100 is double of our training!besides that,before we even start,there's this tekan session to make u do push up and runs to feel weak even before the start!!!there's this special grp of sadistic seniors coming down to try to tok u into falling out during the warmup etc!this is why once i clear this warm up,i will earn my respect level in my coy also!so happy!!!now look forward to the last 100 which will make the actual start of my life in my coy doing my fav stunts daily with my "wife" mk IV!!!

oki...next muz b the day whereby i met jianshun jianhong and zhijian at city hall to shop for xmas giftS!!!damn fun lolz,we came up with this "search for ur Christmas gift" idea during the gift exchange!we were suppose to wrap up a fake present with clues to diff ppl which will give clues to direct them to the present!damn lame but i muz say it muz b interesting rite rather than so boring!we had a great time shopping for gifts except for the fact that i din see anything at all!then went to hav some waffle and met up with mingchun and then went home!whahaha...

next impt event this week is definitely the sports day tat my unit conducted on the eve of xmas!!!damn boring lolz and some more i gotta run lehz!i cant believe my own ears when i heard im in for the 4X200 event whereby i dun even run short dist lolz!damn lan diaoz!but nonetheless we kinda lan lan juz go run and we completely cannot make it lolz!given mi a choice i would prefer to b in the 4X400 team lolz,that one may i still got chance to get something!but no doubt the current 4X400 team is powerfuL!too bad...next yr then!damn siao one lolz...army personel playing waterbombs and stuff damn boring!left immediately aft the event to join my mumbo frenz at cc to dance!even though very tire,still rush home and then tried my very best to rush down to cc to see if im of any help!

Christmas eve yeah?hoho...i've definitely enjoyed myself!but in a special and unique way than to go clubbing with frenz!i've received many offers from all my frenz...clubbing,dining @ cafes,rot at someone's house,bbq etc...i'm sorry to hav turn them down!but i hope u guys enjoyed urself even w/o mi!i chose to go loiter ard town with mumbo ppl doing stupid stuff!cheap thrills i'll called that!who else but us will hav the guts to do such stuff???anywayz,gotta back track abit on the timing lahz...muz b systematic abit!

@ abt 3 i went down to cc to revise my dance steps for kokomo and mambo no 5!then help out in teaching the new instructors that dun noe the dance!my partner= victoria!!!not bad not bad...at least she not that blur so its easier to dance with her!muahah...during the practice,jianshun and i keep acting as if we're realli going for a performance in orchard and that' why we are suppose to train the instructors for the dance!and as usual,sean also join us in the fake away plaN!its amusin when the instructors realli tot we are going to perform in public man!whahah....aft all,we went off for dinner at abt 6 plus?walk to amk S11 to hav dinner ...Dinner at S11 was definitely fun!aft eating,we started playing with the bottle of wax that darryl brought!we started styling GILLIAN's new hair style and she look so cute and blur while jianshun was styling her hair lolz...then aft gillian was done,it triggered off the styling mania!it went on to jianshun then zhijian...many many more and that includes mi!luckily my hair damn short and nothing for them to style also!whaha...then my PHDIC member ling also kana lolz!lan diao!long hair some more!definitely wax like siao!whahah....then they played 007 to finish off Mingchun's honey baked ham!aft that we went to take a train to town to meet up with the rest and to start off with a so called PLANNED outing by the yandao dong!actualli its all bullshit cos its actualli a impromptu thingy!we come out with the ideas on the spot!...on the train,we played the concentration game and dau peh gong!its damn funny when we actualli made ppl 4feet by dancing the chicken dance in the cabin!then its always like the new instructors that kana lolz.!we've got alicia,gillian,weiliang their 1min of fame on the train yeeah?they are reallli sporting ppl man!RESPECT!!!whahaha...u may call that lan lan muz do!but they still did it!ahaha....anywayz,then we reach orchard station and we started playing dua peh gong!its practically a prank lah!when we point and shout dua peh gong at a person,all of us are suppose to run and kneel infront of the person to pray!whahah....then pray for abt 2-3 secs then we are suppose to stand up and walk off as if nothing's happened!whahaha...damn lame i muz say but definitely it amused ppl ard!then we started going down the street playing dua peh gong and also we surround certain grps of ppl to sing We wish u a merry christmas to them!walking down orchard is damn diff ystd!its like a WAR ZONE filled with all those snow and ribbon sprays!the trend this yr is like ppl like sabo-ing ppl all ard!whaha...i pity the cleaners lolz!look at the ribbon mess and the soapy grounds at orchard road!damn disgustinG!!!watever we're called as a green city has changed overnite!i wonder wat's up for NYE!!!as we walk down,we saw this grp of "yellow shirt gang"muaha...we decided to qie them...we ran infront of them and pray to them,we formed an extended line along the street and dance side front back such that ppl cant walk across us!we blocked out their way and they were amused!whaha...we bombed the Yellow gang in the name of NUS!!!whahah...damn funny!then went to park mall to meet up with dajie!!!then someone came up with the idea of getting the wet umbrella covers to make the pong pong stick juz like NDP!!!whahah...then we stole from the park mall building lolZ!!!whaha./...then tok to dajie!so happy to see her back!it's been so long since i've seen her!then we used the stick to knock them!!!wahaha...then we went to victoria's condo which is so damn near my camp!!!whaha...then go to her place for gift exchange and then slack!played stupid games etc...then the supposingly active PHDIC's all knock out while other's playing games!!!!whahaha...then went yew tee mac for breakfast and then got home lolz!look forward to meeting them tonite again ard ikea area i guess!cant join them for dinner!!!but will join them aft that...realli enjoyed ur company guys!!!no doubt this yr not as spectacular as before,i've still enjoyed myself being able to spend the eve of christmas with ya guys in a unique waY!!!

oh boy!im super duper happy!im finally gonna meet up with my die hard ODAC mates!!gonna hav dinner at yvonne's place!!!Namly's place area hor!!!mai siao siao!!!hwhaha...heard the gals gonna cook up a dinner for us!hope can make it lahz...whahah....look forward to seeing u guys to do lotsa catching up especially my fellow dey gang!!!SAM,kenneth...and my wor wor familY!!!my b-itch and wor wor!!!wonder how's things going on between them...hope everyone realli enjoyed themselves be it studying or love lifE!

as for my camp mates!!!i realli miss ya guys!be it BMTC mates,SOP trainees and APC men!!!i wish for u guys a smooth sailing 2005!Merry Xmas and enjoy ur supa duper long weekend this week SAFpU peeps!and special mention muz go to my platoon mates like alwyn for serving his guard duty!n i realli gotta thank the platoon 1 xin jiao for lan lan taking over of my christmas eve guard!!!whaha...cya guys next week!!!!.....

Hmm,got this sudden urge to start blogging again sia!it could be due to the fact that i can't realli speak out wat my mind wans to say for a freaking lOnnngGGGgg time liaoz...mayb blogging helps!Let's hope it does and definitely it takes time to built up my site again!

It's the end of yr once again!Camp have finally ended and so did the children Xmas party which juz ended today!Currently,quite sianz and ironically,i'm also pretty happy!I'm happy to hav make some new frenz,strengthen certain frenship bonds and learnt lotsa new stuff and experience lessons which i would nv hav learn from staying home all day!!!Definitely,winning so much is not possible without losing some stuff...it juz depends on how much i can try to maximise my winnings and minimise my losses...I've always regarded my mumbo frenz as my "highest authority or priority frenz" and that's y i gave up most of my time spending it with other frenz outside juz to resume my responsibility in the mumbo family!i'm thankful to hav met this grp of ppl in my life...started off as a camper then become instructor...i hav a very strong sense of belonging to this grp of ppl!i've learnt and grow along with these bunch of crazy ppl.But im sorry to say that i feel that my performance has been deproving as yr goes by.haben been realli proving myself unlike my camper days!I will definitely put myself forward to tougher challenges ahead and work towards being a better instructor next yr...this i promise!As for this yr's camp,i feel rather upset lahz,pretty sianz and outcast lolz.its all becos i can't come for the first day of camp!my kids dun noe mi and i dun realli noe them!besides this,i also damn slack,keep wanting the new instructors to perform!I realli do wish that new instructors can perform themselves and i trust that onli when the more experienced instructors step out for awhile then the new instructors can take over the centre stage!But i do agree its not completely the case that i wan them to prove their worth,but its also for mi to slack.but i think i did manage to compensate my slackness eventualli towards the end of the camp!hmmm...i've got so much to tok abt the camp can?but dun think i wanna list everything out now cos i've still got other stuff to touch on...

As for my DEAR CJC ODAC members...do u noe how much i miss u guys too?i miss the tough trainings,the sing along sessions,star gazing,tok cock,"play as we trek" games,many many more mts and hills to go...i realli enjoy ur company guys!we needa meet up soon yeah...and im sorry i cant make it for the dinner with ya ppl and esp corinna when u're juz back in sg!im realli sorry and hope u understand that its too last min for mi to put down my 'work' to join u guys!anywayz,i promised that i will join u guys the next time round!and seriously guys,we need to org more gathering sessions can?we're so inactive now!pls pls pls...will someone juz response to this by dropping mi a mail or sms man?shall we go for training???*juz a suggestion*

last by not least,realli gotta thank those that stand by mi when i'm in need yah,bestest pals now and forever!help mi get back my soul guys!!!

Been feeling so lost recently...juz couldn't think of wat i realli wan in my life!It juz seems that i've been searching for something beyond the horizon and that its nv ending!this feeling sux when u noe that ppl ard u have their definite goals and noe wat they wan,jealousy.

Juz caught Ocean 12 at j8 with my bestest pal wil and ken.its sucky!lousy plot and its very messy...felt so cheated upon wasting my precious time and money on that movie~!aft that movie,we went on to shopping ard for some candy canes for xmas and also xmas cardS!realised that i dun realli hav much time left to waste cos i haven got my gifts ready man!hmm...thinking of ways to cheer my fren up lahz...his like juz out of a messy love thingy and his freaking pissed abt it cos he got played out by this very idiotic girl!my "gf"s tell mi that the girl my fren had been seeing is so cannot make it!ahahaha...but at least his seeing someone for at least some time...its been such a long time since i've dated someone out sia!i realli miss her to some extent but then,think abt it...wat's so good of a NSF when she's surrounded my ORD personnels?its juz not the rite time...how i wish i can be studying rite noW!anywayz,the feelings have definitely grew weaker and weaker by each day!it's juz not too bad sticking ard with my mumbo frenz...but this wont last man,who can i depend on aft dec...i dun expect miracles but i truly hope that i could still depend on my mumborians?whahah...*think think*i wish for their happiness and i'll be definitely there when anyone needs mi...

Does age realli matter?.......i'm looking forward to my traffic police test next mth man!hope i'll pass even though i haven been touching cars since marcH!i feel so inconfident now!haizz...juz hope i pass lahz...no time to waste!

message of the day: DUN WATCH OCEAN 12!!!WASTE TIME N $$$