Sunday, November 30, 2008
im very frustrated...seriously very.sometimes i just dun see why i chose this path and let everything go.but now that i have given up,i should just leave it as it is.there's no way i can interfere and influence.i dun see why cant you be flexible and prepare for the worse.the more i try and put my point across,the more frustrated i get.its seems like im not longer at the same frequency as you guys already!damn...fuck...wat the fuck is going on.frustrated at what i forsee could be a serious problem and i just cant do anything.fuck everything...its no longer my reign and just fuck it.perhaps im just thinking too much...just too much. :(
♥Oh, so vintage... 10:42 PM
Saturday, November 29, 2008
1st Singaporean Dead due to terrorist activities.
Deepest condolences to the family.
This is definitely a great chance for our government and the media to wake Singaporeans up.STOP thinking that it will not happen to us.We're not invulnerable too.and then, when u see the army recruitment advertisement,i seriously think its a joke.
Take a look at how ah gua all the batches have become?steel within?omg...damn funny.shorter serving term and more pampered children.wat do you think you guys can do?
and as for the situation in bangkok.im really surprised!that's like crazy,they cant do anything to get those ppl out of the airport.but im glad some of u guys din make the trip.i seriously cant imagine what's goinng to happen to you guys if u were trapped there man!i remember the last time i went to bangkok,there was actually riot which i didn't noe.luckily it wasn't so bad!hehe...thank god.
on a lighter note,thank for all the well wishes from all my frens.i really appreciate it alot.thx thx.
♥Oh, so vintage... 6:36 PM
Friday, November 28, 2008
笨蛋
莎:很多时候我因为怕受伤所以就选择先放弃我更因我太爱自由所以明明渴望爱情却依然不知怎样让别人进入我的世界.
杰:难道我不能给你百分百的信心吗?你知道我一直有多在乎你.
莎:我珍惜这份安全感却又担心他的牺牲所以每天的感觉还是孤独的我还是需要一个人一个人想一想.
冰箱结霜
咖啡滚烫煮不好
最简单的早餐我的生活
是一团混乱维持单身
感觉茫然喜不喜欢
习不习惯我总是说不出个答案一个人来
又一个人往怎么让他 流连忘返
我不想当笨蛋
我在墙上写满渴望
我可以大哭一场
房间还是 空空荡荡
我绝对不逞强
该属于我任其自然
可是我也要安全感
在某个适当程度的主张
纵然是了解眼光
也是温暖
杰:这段日子你真的过得好吗?
莎:没有你的早晨加了糖的咖啡也是苦的
杰:当时我尊重你的要求所以我离开但这段日子你不开心所以我就回来了
莎:也许我连自己要什么我也不知道我一个人游游荡荡自由久了也没有了目标梦里醒来发现墙上已经不自觉写满了你的名字
杰:单身是茫然恋爱也彷徨我明白所以我用时间去证明了这颗心不会因为你曾经的放弃而改变
每个早上
都想赖床没有梦
是最让人沮丧我的眼睛
盯着天花板也跑不出
任何对象
我不想当笨蛋
我在墙上写满渴望
我可以大哭一场
房间还是空空荡荡
我绝对不逞强
该属于我任其自然
可是我也要安全感
在某个适当程度的主张
纵然是了解眼光也是温暖
莎:难道我真的是个笨蛋一直错过已经在身边的幸福
杰:我们只是用时间找到了我们需要什么时间让我们认识了自己也肯定了对方
莎:因为你让我知道真正的幸福是什么
i feel very much for the lyrics.pretty sad case and i seriously hope u're coping well man!jiayou BeL.come back to SG sooN!
IH SEASON COMING!shiok shiok...time to train and play hard.i cant wait for next week to come.so many things to do.oh gosh...anywayz,im feeling tired alreadY!all i wanna do now is thank you ppl for the earli well wishes and my lovely stalkers for the early celebration in sch!thx thx...
thx for the hardwork!
♥Oh, so vintage... 11:11 PM
Thursday, November 27, 2008
DULAN.REALLY DAMN DULAN!now i dun have the mood to go already!go all you wan.GAN DULAN!
♥Oh, so vintage... 12:36 AM
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
我真的很累了。大家都考完了但我还没。真气馁，想到大家都能去mambo而自己还得好好温书，真sian.我好繁啊！！！请救救我吧！
♥Oh, so vintage... 8:11 PM
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Hatred :
–noun
the feeling of one who hates; intense dislike or extreme aversion or hostility.
oh well,if you're seeing this,this is too strong a word to use.at least,to me there isn't any.i dunno wat it means to you.if its your perspective,then its worse.cos it's a totally wrong arguement cos there's no previous to bring abt the latter.
♥Oh, so vintage... 10:26 AM
Thursday, November 20, 2008
oh gosh...finally finished another paper.it wasn't too tough this time round.but that's the bad thing.cos everyone seems to find it easY!SHIT!anywayz,wat's impt now is that im slacking at home.alot of things have been running through my head for the past few days.things other than studying.
i realised that i'm very useful to certain extend.be it in a good or bad way.it seems that im only in demand when ppl need my help and when there's not AOB, ppl just chuck you aside.thanks for consulting me and giving me my sense of usefulness and no thanks for just chucking me aside when im not needed.that's the harsh reality of life.but i just wan you to noe that there's a limit how much and how far i can go all out to help you.you've gotta fall and learn on your own too...there's no way one will be able to shelter you from the external environment always.learn to fall and pick up quickly.that's my only advice.anywayz,why im thinking this way?mayb im just too sensitive or mayb its just conincidence.only you ppl can answer this for me.
just looking back at wat i've done for the past sem,i realised alot of things which i've failed terribly!the most impt thing is i've lost my happy go lucky kinda mentality.like seriously!my self discipline is getting from bad to worse and wat happened to the resilience and determination which we used to pride ourselves with?what have happened to the FM SPEEDONK spirit?have i thrown everything i learn away?i really wonder.i feel like the devils in me have slowly overwhelm the angels in me.i feel like i have no more control over wat i really wan and this is bad.and from this moment on...i must try and revive my old self.i wanna enjoy wat im doing and just bump ard.i need to get more focused.i need my self discipline.i must and i will achieve all this.
sidetrack abit...yes...i've gotten over you.seriously.even though when nothing happened in the first place,it was already bad enough for me.i really hate wat i see and i dare say im sore!but then,i just dun wanna hang on like an idiot anymore.and becos of these, i have to thank you that i've come to realised who are my true frens whose always there for me.cheering me up and pushing me on.i thank you for that...seriously.but all i wanna say is i still DUN LIKE HIS FACE!really feel like PUNCHING HIM!hahaha...*alright.im sore*but so WHAT?hehehe...
oh gosh i cant believe i blogged this.by well,im feeeling so much better now!hhehehe...and thanks alot my SUNSHINE,Queen as well as my fav girls.u girls rock my world !!!thanks alot.
♥Oh, so vintage... 10:59 PM
Saturday, November 15, 2008
OPEN up your EYES.
a bad way to wake up.but it came at the right time.at least i still have 1 more day for the 4 AU.i must be more motivated.it should stay the same way for the rest of the papers.all along you knew it wasn't possible yet you chose to hang on hoping that something might just happen.DUMB DUMB!finally someone had to slap you in the face with the facts which u and i can see and finally u decide to wake up!isn't it a wonderful feeling now?thx for waking me up.thank you very much.
i'm thankful that i have my favourites ard to cheer me up!thanks alot.i love you ppl!
*wat's the feeling of feeling sad?...perhaps im already numbed..."
♥Oh, so vintage... 11:11 PM
Monday, November 10, 2008
to the horror that i received the moment i open up my door.i feel like killing...i just feel like killing...NABEI!
♥Oh, so vintage... 11:41 AM
Friday, November 07, 2008
even before exam ends,i can foresee that everything already ended.IT's THE END.
:(
♥Oh, so vintage... 11:19 AM
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
i decided that i've enough.ENOUGH.PERIOD
♥Oh, so vintage... 9:58 PM
3rd day running.will i be able to resist?i do feel uncomfortable at times but i guess that's the best for now.i really need to get away from the woRLD.like isolate and just do wat im suppose to do.and i seriously hope it's not taken in a bad way.
something sounds super duper loser.but well,if u were in my position,i bet u feel that way too.its something which i should best avoid at this time cos the more i see/the more i know, the more i'll speculate and the more i cannot concentrate.and i seriously pray that,there's really nothing going on bah!LIKE SERIOUSLY!please...
over the weekend,bought 2 new pair of asics.damn shiok...at that kinda price, its not too bad.tried it out just now with the damn ugly one and weeleong!not too bad lahz though i still feel abit weird.probably becos im used to the one that i've always been wearing and changing a brand new series feels abit weird.
celebrated roy's bday just now!seriously love camp com lahz!thx for putting in the effort to come down everyone!and for organising the mini celebration man!QUEK MI SHU rOX!
*i really really feel very sucky now*
♥Oh, so vintage... 2:03 AM
Saturday, November 01, 2008
sometimes,u just bring me high up and let me fall all the way down.
i seriously feel like shit.but wat dun kill me makes me stronger!cant wait for exams to finish,but can this wait?
♥Oh, so vintage... 2:30 AM
