Thursday, June 18, 2009
still feels like crap.i've never gotten myself so DROWN before.literally drown.i need a float.HELP ME!!!and i need LOTSA SLEEP!arghx...why m i still not sleeping???
♥Oh, so vintage... 3:48 AM
tired and weary...today definitely was a bad bad day.was thinking abt so much stuff and thanks to my part time darling for talking to me and making me feel better. AS WELL AS pretty ashleY!i'll hold yyou to ur word!hehehe...
i feel like leaving this damn place for a while.i need to walk out of my comfort zone and expand it.call it escaping or watever not.i just wanna leave this damn place,alone.it will depends on wat happens next.must start planning for it already.but it all depends on the status of the scholarship.it will pretty much help me decide what i should do.
anyone spare a thought for me before???i really wonder :(
♥Oh, so vintage... 1:32 AM
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
这真是一场残酷的恶浊据
这也将会是这24年以来当中又爱又恒的其中1业
这感觉真不好受。
如果我说我开心，我一定是在骗你
我不想，我也不要。
但你开心的话，我会尝试为你开心
虽然我不一定做得到，但我会努力尝试
我也发现付出不一定有结果。
但我还是会不顾一切地把最好的和你一起分享
在你伤心的时候，陪着你
在你感到无助的时侯，伴你走出黑暗
但愿有一天，你会给我一个机会
虽然在你身边的男人不是我，
但我任然会默默的守护着你
希望你能开开心心的过每一天
希望老天会给我力量坚持下出
我只想说出心里的话，让自己好过一些些
但我也不希望你知道以后，感到苦脑，不开心。
但如果我不说，我也很痛苦。
我真的真的不知如何是好。。。老天啊！！！
♥Oh, so vintage... 3:15 AM
Thursday, June 11, 2009
though i dunno you long.but i just FEEL THAT YOU're so DISGUSTING!seriously...i really have serious doubt in you and i hope you're not taking things so lightly and hurt anyone!it seems like a dream,such a bad dream.
TIAO TIAO TIAO,TIAO NI DE SI REN TOU!!!stop showing off ur FLIRTING skills!DISGUSTING SHIT!
♥Oh, so vintage... 5:40 PM
GOOD news and BAD news.
Good news is that i've been shortlisted for the ASMI scholarship award and i'm suppose to head down for an interview session on the 25th.
BAD news will be the fact that i'm away in taiwan having fun. The admin lady told me that she'll inform the respective organisation and will get back to me if and only if ASMI decides to hold another interview session for me. Oh gosh...i seriously hope it gets through man! else...it'll be a super expensive taiwan trip for me! GOSH!!!
i just wanna thank those that stood by me lately giving me sound advices.ThANK YOU ALL VERY MUCH!i'll learn from this lesson and get stronger!
♥Oh, so vintage... 2:54 PM
lately,i observe that there's a growing trend for ppl to fall in love with bad boys.esp those with gfs at the moment. seriously no offence to these frens of mine but im really curious with the growing trend.i've like more than 5 friends that currently stuck in that kinda situation now!its really hard to understand.
well...no matter wat,make the right choice and live with it with no regrets yeaH!jiayou ppl!
♥Oh, so vintage... 5:47 AM
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
all thx to my PT!!!you made me realised what im doing is wrong.LIKE TOTALLY!i need to pick up the loose pieces and try again! don't give urself the verdict cos you're not the judge and let end everythign when no everyone gets the big picture. Perhaps someday, it might just work! JIAYOU... 要对得起自己.
i wanna start on a fresh piece of paper now and i hope everything will be good!just give me 2 more days for a short break!i'll be back i promise!!!meanwhile, its good that you're enjoying urself!smile more and stay happy!that's wat i wan TOO!!!
♥Oh, so vintage... 2:32 PM
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
its getting to a point of getting too over!seriously.i cant believe my eyes.now i noe i really dunno anything.i think this is not a game at all and it seems like you guys are having fuN!yea...continue that way.ALL THE WAY & all the best.
♥Oh, so vintage... 5:51 PM
stay focus...wat's ur objective right now? I just wanna be able to execute a QB before hitting TW!!!i must train hard and get rid of all the obstacles lying ahead!FOCUS...give me strength!!!
♥Oh, so vintage... 12:55 PM
been tossing and turning throughout the night. it really sucks and im the one screwing my own mind. im really blinded by things that i have totally no control over. I need to overcome and conquer this. i dun wanna be like this but im trying very hard to control myself.
thx to ppl that care.ESP LP!!!thx for the call and i really din expected that. i really appreciate it alot! but still im tired and unmotivated. i think i just need time to think it over.im exhausted...im low...i.......
♥Oh, so vintage... 4:29 AM
Monday, June 08, 2009
tearing doesn't help.i feel so helpless.i realised how important you're to me now.i just need to reorganise my tots!it really hurts and i really wonder if i really really know wat im doing.am i wrong?i really dunno.please dun do this to me.
♥Oh, so vintage... 10:32 PM
yes...im screwing with my own mind right now!LITERALLY!i really hate this feeling.am i even in the right frame of mind right now?gosh...this sucks!like totally!
♥Oh, so vintage... 4:32 PM
fear sets in...esp wat happened today.i really just need you to tahan for just another 3 weeks.just hang in there for 3 more weeks.i promised i'll give u a good break after that!a well deserved one that is.for now,we'll just tone it down and pray hard nothing happens yeah.
dear ligament...thank you!
♥Oh, so vintage... 2:03 AM
Sunday, June 07, 2009
it feels like standing alone on top of Gunung Korbu under the rain with lightning,no torchlight and no warm clothing,@ a temperature of 16 degrees celsius.How does it feels?
somehow,even if you're reading this now,i must say i've committed a sin to be jealous!WHO WOULDN'T?it really feels like you're interested in a guy within just a short 4 days!but well,i personally believe you're not that kinda person.i still believe.holding hopes up high and thinking that someday,i'll be the one!
there's so much i wanna say which i just cant bring myself to say!for i noe the grave consequences that comes along with it.Hang in there and i just wan everyone to be happy and its oki if im not everyone!
no matter wat,i'll hang on till the very end.Just dun lift me too high up to fall a terrible death!thank you :)
♥Oh, so vintage... 3:35 AM
Friday, June 05, 2009
i hope you really had great fun for these few days though i didn't.but well,impt thing is that you managed to do quite abit of stunts which you'll hardly get to do without these guys here.u seem really really excited and happy when you get to do those high level stunts.seeing that smile and you having fun was gr8.that was why i chose to take a step back as well as worrying that my injury might get worse.after watever have passed for the past few days,i will work hard to achieve these high level stunts!i wanna see you get high and excited again.its tough but i believe that someday,i'll be able to do it.
well.i wasn't really myself for the past few days.I'm learning to take things easy but then again,i'll be lying if i say im not affected at all.but well,after cooling down,i really am able to rationalise than act irrationally.i just noe tat im in no position to control anyone.i just have to take it as it comes.all i wanna say is that im disappointed today.really really disappointed.but well...live it.it might be good that im not going with you guys!
well...i think i should end it here.thanks to the USA cheerleaders.I've learn quite abit and im sure i had some other lessons learnt other than cheer related stuff.Thank you very much!
♥Oh, so vintage... 12:15 AM
Monday, June 01, 2009
im so tired now.i wish i could sleep well last nite but it just didn't turn out the way it should be.DAMns...i was tossing and turning in bed till i really couldn't take the pain.i almost wanted to head straight down to A&E but i just didn't.damns...now.i'm on 2 days mc!woOhoOO...great isn't it?arghx.i hate this.seriously.
now,atc is at stake.i think im not in the right condition to ruN though i've been waiting for this like 1 freaking year!im really really disappointed!arghx...i dun wanna hit another low point!STAY POSITIVE and stop thinking.dun screw ur own mind.fUCK!i needa sleep...sleep everything away.
♥Oh, so vintage... 10:43 AM
pain is overflowing within me.
physically and mentally.all i wish is for you to stay safe.
well,ain't in the right frame of mind to talk abt anything right now.shall do it again when im free.GOOD BYE WORLD!
*stay safe...*
♥Oh, so vintage... 12:33 AM
