Monday, October 27, 2008
im very frustrated now!and i just get frustrated over small things!omg.im really very cranky now!where's the self discipline and controL?i really cant breathe and the stress level is going sky high now!now all i wanna do is to throw everything away and concentrate on my papers!if only everything can wait....
♥Oh, so vintage... 6:37 PM
Sunday, October 26, 2008
when its time to disappear,you disappear.
♥Oh, so vintage... 8:45 PM
Saturday, October 25, 2008
seriously demoralised.is this the turning point.no matter how much i do,it doesn't seem to be enough.and it seems like its just taken for granted.hmmm...that's bad when i dun have time left.
*on a lighter note, i managed to get my IPPT GOLD once again.really lucky cos i didn't train for it at all.all thx to hendrick for motivating me on that day.but wat really gave me the extra push was U*
♥Oh, so vintage... 1:03 AM
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
it's a tough decision but i guess its for the best.no matter wat,i'll be right behind!
♥Oh, so vintage... 10:40 AM
super low morale.nv did i tried to swallow every single shit right in until yesterday.and the only reason why i swallowed was becos i knew i couldn't just blow it up.i was really fucking dulan already.
just when i tot everything was going oki and alright when everything seems to improve,ur attitude just dun change.and that's going to cost us dearly!like seriously!i dun feel the fun and its more of having to watch our backs all the time.im fucking worried how things will go.and if this is going to happen,its either u stay or i stay.there's no way for us to co-exist.and i guess that's the best way if we still wan any hope of getting thru.i just wish u would change ur attitude at least for the team.like seriously.arghx...i really dun wanna think now!the more i think of it,the more frustrated i get.
i need to sleep it away.
♥Oh, so vintage... 1:51 AM
Sunday, October 19, 2008
i cannot simply cannot comprehend wat kinda mentality this person have!like seriously.u're just making a things difficult for yourself and others by doing wat you've done.its really a challenge to handle someone like you.this is getting exciting and i seriously dun foresee anything good coming out of this.i would prefer that you stop this nonesense for the good of everyone.so just SHUTUP!
i know i have to start studying but im probably just distracted by the many disturbances ard my environment.really many disturbances which shouldnt be here at the moment which just keeps popping up now and then.now that its 3 weeks left and i haven even started doing anything.its almost GG.and i must work hard just like how hard u've been pushing urself every nite.take care and dun fall sick!
my body's falling apart.like seriously.let's just hope that nothing serious at all this time round.
arghx.there's so many things to share but i just feel like i need to sleep and wake up earli to study tml!so yeahz.studies more impt now.jiayou everyone...I NEED A MIRACLE!
♥Oh, so vintage... 12:27 AM
Saturday, October 11, 2008
u're driving me crazy!like seriously...it do seems like a big hint but sometimes u just seem not to even care.omg.that's madness!!!like seriously.but most imptly, KAI XIN JIU HAO!hehehe
went to night safari for some halloween thingy and i must say the atmosphere was pretty good.good effort by the actors and on the decorations over at night safari.and next up major event would be x-toonsique.looking forward to that.anywayz,i've already secured my IA placement and im like looking forward to going to this company.Though i heard wat others have been doing at exxonmobile is like RELAC jack and get paid 1200 per mth.but i think this time round the work experience would be important to me.hehehe...
vball photoshoot this morning and i must say it looks pretty good.i wonder wat the end product will be like even though we didn't really have impressive backgrounds to begin with.
now i really feel like my wrist and shoulders are going to give way anytime soon.i just hope nothing happens to it at this moment.just hang in there for the last few training!and i need to go for IPPT to clear my IPPT.i dun wanna go for RT!!!arghx...
gtg already,no time to finish blogging.till then...im beginning to start studying already!n i MUST!
♥Oh, so vintage... 11:48 PM
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
watever you said,it matters.like seriously and i hope you mean it.
♥Oh, so vintage... 11:57 AM
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
i swear his good at it.and perhaps,too good to a point whereby i feel that everything's coming true.fearful,i can only watch for myself.i really start feeling it creeping in slowly.i really need to do something abt it already.like SERIOUSLY.
haven been sleeping well lately and it really adds to the fatigue exponentially!damn it.really hate this when i still have so much catching up to do.arghx.desperate need for a break...GIVE ME A BREAK.
i need my sunshine back amidst all that MUNDANE WORK!!!
♥Oh, so vintage... 10:02 AM
Friday, October 03, 2008
ups and downs.
OLD SCH CARNIVAL's next wed and after that,its time to really up my gear for exams already!really getting worried already and everything's like still at ground ZERO!after which will be cheerleading stuff to handle.gosh...
had my first interview which didn't really seem like an interview.the job scope and nature of work is exactly wat i would love to do and its really interesting i must say.i didn't really ask alot of questions and out of 4,they will chose 3 of us.i really hope i get it man!seriously.
had training on children's day and hari raya also!really have to thank the vballers for coming down for training.train under the hot sun and gotta thank zh for taking the freshie beginners.hope his ankle is getting better.and apparently, this week i've been pretty frustrated during trainings.i seriously dunno wth is wrong with me.im doing my best to adjust to it already.hopefully, things will get better.
went to dajie's wedding on wed also!it was a really nice wedding reception at hortpark.the place is freaking beautifuL!n i like the cafe there.the ambience there was superb!!!though it was a day of happiness,i could also feel a tinge of sadness.but i guess its really time to move on with it and i seriously hope you can move on.esp when u're already gonna leave sg soon!though u're running away from it,but i guess that would be the best way for u to get over everything.we cannot always dwell over certain things for too long and i hope u'll find someone better n im sure u wilL!stay strong.
damn sway.my 8mths old phone's gone!motherboard cuied and basically im like getting a brand new fone so to speak.hopefully i can find a alternative to change the entire case.its really looks like shit now!hahaha...else.gotta wait for the 1 year mark before i head for something new.
im very tired now.eyes as small as linna's already!omg.cannot take it...i need to get more discipline too.and please KEEP ME ON TRACK!!!
*i need more than 24hours a day.right now,i need lotsa rest and i need you to stay with me!
♥Oh, so vintage... 9:17 PM
