Tuesday, October 30, 2007
WHY CAN'T I JUST HOLD ON A LITTLE LONGER JUST LIKE THE REST DO?HOW COME THEY CAN SURVIVE LONGER HOURS THAN I DO?IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME?gGRRrRrrrRRRrr...WAT HAPPENED TO MY SLEEPLESS NIGHTS?
IPPT today...im afraid.i just wanna do it once do it good and get my 400 bucks from ah gong!!!please...*feels lighter*
♥Oh, so vintage... 1:44 AM
Sunday, October 28, 2007
when was the last time i experience this kinda fear.im really afraid and its only at this point in time when i start panicking.and the best thing is i actually realised im realli interested in some of the modules im taking.its just stuff that's interesting to know but not interesting to study!u get wat i mean?hehe...
anywayz,1st task in liaoZ!that is to come up with 15 interesting facts about doing sports.omg...at this time of the year and im asked to do this!omg...but then again.shall do something abt it since i've promised my freshie that i'll help him out!hehehe.and a couple of other stuff to address.well,tml is the 1st meeting for camp mumbo!im excited but i still cant give my word to commit as a CC.however,i'll definitely be back help as a instructor even if i cant commit to being the CC.besides that, i've been chosen to be a CGL for SU15 and GL for hall camp.i'm happy,i'm excited and im proud of it.but all these comes with a great price to pay!!!omg...shall start saving up and stuff.
sometimes i dun like ppl to be direct cos it hurts.but then again.i realised im more suitable to get bang straight than suffering from misunderstanding and getting banged.i hate it...so just be direct to me for everything though i may not feel good abt it.just treat it that im GAN stupid and stuff and i dun like to infer or read between the lines.i wanna study hard...and i realli need to cherish ppl ard me.i should also open up my eyes and take a good look at wat's happening around me.the world dun just revolves around me only.
*pray hard for good lab and tech com grades*
♥Oh, so vintage... 1:56 AM
Saturday, October 27, 2007
not in the bestest mood today and i was freak pissed.but not any more cos i shouldn't be pissed in the first place.esp when i feel that im like a piece of material undergoing phase change.omg....defects forming within.i just wanna be happy that's all.im not going to be bothered by what others think anymore.i shall just live up to my expectations and that's it.i dunno what kind of feeling that's called but i just noe i just wanna live simply without much complications.i have enough and i seriously dun see what i've done wrong to deserve what i've received before.i must build my good karma from now on and let nature take its course.
thx eug bro for calming me down and im so sry to keep complaining to you.omg...the same thing goes to my queen no 2 that entertains me when im bored!!!heheh...
*wat have i done wrong in my life to deserve all this???*i wish i can make time but im sry im too tied up this weekend!!!arghx...just continue to study hard and dun give up!i'll still cya next sem!!!*
♥Oh, so vintage... 12:08 AM
Thursday, October 25, 2007
stress building up...high up...so many things left not done and i have assignments and projects still not completed.gotta clear all this shit before this weekend before i can get down and start studying for my exams.and its like how many days left only!omg...
Just wanna wish nichole a happy birthday.another of my freshie's catching up with me(age)...aahaha...
i shall stop complaining like wat tp says and just carry on mugging.that should be more productive.arghx...i hate this feeling but i shall just push ahead.NO TIME LEFT!presentation in coming up in awhile.cannot afford to cui this again.i dun wanna get so lousy grades for tech com can?how paiseh...ippt next week..i needa run today!arghx...take timing take timing!!!
♥Oh, so vintage... 11:59 AM
Monday, October 22, 2007
you just never learn.always have to remind u over and over again.why cant u just pay some attention to wat i'm trying to tell you?how many times do you wanna get cheated.if wat we say doesn't really matter to you at all.then so be it...i won't wanna nag anymore.just carry on with wat you think its right.most imptly, i still wanna see you around next sem and more to go.dun give up and study hard.
sometimes i just realli dun understand how girls think n how they handle certain stuff.they're all emo creatures.but in reality,things don't happen cos you're a good emo creature!!!you have to be practical and handle everything not through ur emotions yeaH?even the most zai course (lady)mate i see right now is also showing signs of working according to emotions.THINGS DUN WORK THAT WAY!!!cast aside all ur emo-ness and start working hard.i won't wanna see you fall out at this point of the race we're in together.jiayou...
sometimes i just feel im fucking stupid.but it doesn't matter cos that's the way i m.1 quiz down.1 more to go!sleepless nites ahead...
♥Oh, so vintage... 4:33 PM
Sunday, October 21, 2007
im thankful.thankful for the fact that i've been chosen as a GL for SU15.i really appreciate it even though sometimes i really have doubts about it.yes...so many ppl fighting for that precious 8 slots and i didn't really expected much in the first place.i'll definitely put in my best and not let them down man!
street challenge today was sianz esp when we have to wait for nothing!from a participants view point,i would definitely wan things to proceed fast and end fast so i can go home.and that's y we actually gave up our remaining matches even though we actually got into the semis.imagine how long i have to wait just to play 1 semi final game when there's still court space for the game to carry on.i actually went back to hall take a shower and went back home when the call to confirm if our team's not playing anymore came man!and im glad we did just that.if not i wouldn't dare to imagine wat time we'll get back home man!and it will be another full day wasted just like that.managed to mug some 2008 and i think i shall have a good rest today so that i can mug like crazy tml onwards.finally no more sports training except for vball from next week oN!!!im beginning to feel interested in studying some of the modules man!i need to do well for the simple reason that most of my quiz were damn cui!disappointing and i freaking need to work harder.i cant let my GPA go any lower for the simple reason that it'll just get tougher and tougher to pull it up!
please be strong ppl.when the going gets tough,the tough gets going!!!work hard together man!and thx alot for the game today team walkover!!!and i really enjoyed myself hanging out with you bunch of crazy freshies!hahaha...keep the 7 spirit up man!
♥Oh, so vintage... 12:32 AM
Thursday, October 18, 2007
great game at temasek.im loving every moment.but you also get to see the ugly side of ppl.arghx...kinda strained my calves and they're killing me.everyone's improving but to get even closer to finals,we need to work even harder.things seems to be in good shape at the moment.
im just pissed.im not a servant and i freaking dun owe u anything.please stop being so egoistic and lower ur ego.if not you're gonna lost ur friends.and im not the only 1 that thinks that you're getting super duper demanding nowadays.please reflect...
*zonk out =(( *
♥Oh, so vintage... 3:02 AM
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST CHUA AH LING AND AVIEL SIM!!!1 turns 20 and the other 22...its damn scary.
anywayz,i seriously dunno wat im busy with.but lately it seems that we're heading in the right direction some how.things looks quite promising especially when our grouping is already out.gonna play temasek hall later tonite.so exciting and i cant wait to visit their halls man!training gonna stop real soon and i seriously hope we're heading somewhere.
exams coming and i still have modules starting from ground ZERO!omg...no one can save me now.not even myself when i always feel so tired.training reduced to once a week should work for me i hope!hehehe...time to get some sleep.
♥Oh, so vintage... 2:49 AM
Monday, October 15, 2007
did i study hard enough for it?or did i not?arghx....felt completely demoralised when i actually got a C+ for my quiz.the kind of feeling whereby i tot i could have done better since i was able to reason out before making a decision for MCQ but yet still get sucha sucky grade?omg...m i just getting dumber each day?the feelin of not onli losin to others but myself just suck big time...time to buck up and off to MP2001...
~move on~
♥Oh, so vintage... 4:46 PM
Sunday, October 14, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIANA and JULIA!!!1 turns 19 and the other 20!!!OMG...its still not scary yet...
Went back home over the weekend.shiok feeling but i dunno if im nua-ing anot.there's so much to catch up.arghx...i cant wait for exams to be over.another thing in mind would be the golden SU15 GL list.hmmm...still waiting for it and it seems that it never comes.how come like that?
i hope things are going on well for my friends out there even though im like suffering like no body's business.shit that i dun have to clear ends up with me anyway and not that i think im the worse.but i just cant hold out any longer.i need my time and my friends.esp those i've been neglecting.i'm sry...
looking forward to meeting some friends in nUs as well as playing a good game on wed with TH.
♥Oh, so vintage... 8:23 PM
Thursday, October 11, 2007
im fuck pissed right now.i dun fucking understand what girls are thinking at the back of their mind.im must let go everything right here in case i burst out into flames when i see you later!arghx...cant they just use a little more brains.cant you just do your stuff and ask me go down for fuck.if everything revolves around me.wat's the point of having you?i'm self sufficient then....FUCK OFF!!!you have no right to be angry with me when you're in the wrong in the first place...arghx...you're sucking my blood!killing me...
♥Oh, so vintage... 3:31 PM
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
new record.15 ppl msning me at the same time!omg...i really freaking dunno how to answer them man!hahaha.anywayz,just came back from cheerleading,softball and road relay.not as shag as i tot it will be.mayb i didn't put in enough effort bah!
gotta go sleep real soon and skip my 2 lectures tml for maths quiz revision.i cannot afford to screw up this quiz.i hope i wont.
match against hall 9 tml.exciting.next up will be hall 4 next mon i think and then probably hall 8.hall 3 cancelled liaoz...arghx...sianz!
i need rest...and thx all for the concern.feel so loved...really am...
♥Oh, so vintage... 1:18 AM
Sunday, October 07, 2007
Don't make someone your priority,if they only make you an option
1 life,live it...
♥Oh, so vintage... 10:17 PM
just some updates over the week before i start revising for maths quiz.
wed:
play a friendly match against ex JJC team.tried out various team combinations and im must say im pretty satisfied with the results.we won almost all games but the most impt thing is that we're getting use to getting into the positions that we're suppose to be in for every single move.now,i would say its more of training more and leveling up our weak points that more impt now.playing hall 9 this coming tues and hope we're even more proficient with our positionings and communicating to one another.jiayou...
thurs:
training again.very tired very shag but still train.tot i could sleep earlier this nite but end up settling team formation and stuf.but it was quite good i think.
fri:
another shag day.felt damn sick...drag my zombiefied body back home for some love.basically nothing much happened at home too.
sat:
YEC BGM for the 14th term.got back into the com and i'll be running as a sports and recreation secretary cum assistant adventure secretary.the event was held at mandai orchid garden and it was a pretty much relaxing place i must say.and the restuarant there looks good and its definitely a nice place to hold ur ROM within that orchid garden.the setting looks damn good!after which went down for the sports club alumni gathering not knowing who will be there.hahaha.was the first man there cos i didn't expect BGM to end so earli.got my GL pass...which is basically a photo with the P and VP of sports club.had some drinks with jonas and of course there was food.got 1 of the best 2 sub commers award and after which flew back to hall to SLEEP!
SU 13 music @ SCAG 07
just some random updates...i'm still sick.
♥Oh, so vintage... 11:51 AM
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
half a moon today and it just doesn't seems alright.no sense of fulfilment as well as lack of something.Im sorry i have to break the news to you.What you said to me made me think twice.i feel the obligations and i dun wish to turn you down.I just feel so lousy for being easily swayed.I'll reconsider my options and try to make things work i hope.will have to see...after all,i think i'll feel like the one standing all alone.OMG...
dunno wat's wrong with my eyes.they seem to be giving me alot of problems for the past few days.WTF is wrong with them...arghx...
today ain't a very good day.but somehow,i believe that i've opened up my eyes.WAKE UP and BUCK UP!life still goes on...
♥Oh, so vintage... 2:29 AM
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
slowly but surely...im losing it.Completely.i don't know why but im just feeling the inertia.the inability to do something within my control.like wat mr lim says.win some lose some and all i have to do is to max my winnings and minimising my losses.will i be able to take control of this?i really dunno.im tired...damn shag.vball followed by softball followed by cheerleading.no time to study today at all.im so dead.
on a lighter note, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELEANOR!!!you've been missed...have a great 22nd round of shit and may you always be happy!cheers.
*fainted*
♥Oh, so vintage... 1:47 AM
