went for a odac gathering yesterday between the 4th and 5th batch!well,i was from the 5th batch lahz...anywayz,quite a no of us attended the gathering at shihan's place!but the sad thing abt the gathering is that less than half of those present were from my batch!and wat's worst is that majority of those that attended from my batch is actually my seniors gf!!!which made mi feel quite out of the grp cos they've been meeting up very very frequently due to their relationship!!!well,anywayz,i still attended!gotta entertain myself onli wat...ahaha!well,made pana cotta as a dessert for them lahz!the one that yifei made for mumbo peeps on xmas eve!felt that it was very nice and so i specially asked yifei to come over to teach mi to do it for the gathering!thx yifei!!!and well,the effect was quite good man!even better than wat was being made the first time!the "pudding" effect was much better than the previous one!and the bailey's choco chip flavour was pretty good!!!well,my seniors and my batchmate were like WOW....hahaha!!!anywayz,then had some small talk with my old frenz,then i realised that almost all from our batch are currently attached lahz!ahahaha...all happily in love,couple couple.well,it seems im pretty pathetic lahz,but fret not!im still leading a very comfortable life!no limits,no boundaries...wat more to ask for?bolts and chains???no way...let's juz see if anything will happen in this supposingly MAGICAL and revolutionary yr 2006!!!im longing for living a normal civilian and a fun filled uni lifestyle!!!

well,today did do anything much except for reformatting my com and watching LOTR over again!then went cycling in the park for ard an hr...well,my legs are feeling pretty tire now!!!tml will be good!gonna hit the KTV with mumbo peeps again~!well,im enjoying every moment of my life this dec!comes january,i think everything will start to tone down liaoz!that's the typical mumbo thingy!but well,my mumbo family mates will always be ard!juz dun wanna lose the camp effect...well,shall juz wait and see!im so looking forward to coordinating the baywatch thingy for the YEC!!!shall juz wait for the next meeting for things to reach us...this could jolly well be my first major project since i've gotten into the YEC as a adventure(sea) secretarY!!!jiayou le...

hohoho!!!hi everyone and a happy belated christmas to all yeah?well,haven been blogging for the past week due to the fact that i haven managed to squeeze out time for this little space of my own,my memory land man!well,was so busy a few days in a roll for XMAS cos gotta prepare lotsa pressies for my dear frenz from mumbo and the volunteer grp that im attached too!!!first was the xmas party for the kids at the CC.after that was busy shopping the whole day looking for a suitable present and helping ppl chose present!well,u juz gotta say that im so impt to everyone!!!hahaha,always need mi to accompany for this and that!well,wat are frenz for man!besides shopping,after getting xmas cards and having ideas of wat to give,its now going into the hands on part man!well,i've like ard 40 xmas cards to write!!!and ppl who noes mi or have received my card before will noe i actualli put in effort to write my thoughts and stuff in the card!its pretty LONG oki!!!and worst thing is that i gotta write super long essay for my PHID members and this LAO GAO jianshun!!!(camp commandant)....ahahahah...well,imagine while i was in camp and had the whole day to sleep,i gave up my sleep time and started writing my cards while everyone in my bunk was practically dead~!i was so tired to the extend whereby i actualli wrote till i slept while i was lying on my bed writing the cards!worst thing is that when i woke up,i was in this position whereby my frenz said i look like i've gotten poisoned while writing my will man!ahahaha...then,as i was using this ink pen to write,once i felt asleep still writing,the ink got absorbed by the card making a very big stain mark!thus,spoiling that card man!and well,it din happen once but twice!one was in camp,the other one was at home!that shows how tire i m man!besides getting the cards done,i've gotta work on my bookmark!!!super stress lolz,gotta match fotos with the ppl that im gonna give and choose those nicer pics to develop!and besides developing,the very first step is to edit them into small prints rather than those one pic per 3r or 4R photo!anywayz,the editing part was done by yifei!thx alot man...he managed to put 4 pics into one 3R foto!!!so,i develop it liao then i gotta cut them into individual fotos!approximately 150 small fotos man!after which gotta match them up with the recipient and start marking out the boxes on the transparency!!!aft which gotta draw lines and cut out the desire shape!aft which,gotta color the transparency using black marker into something that look like the film that we use for photography!!!well,i've used 10 black markers juz to made the pressies for my mumbo peeps man!aft which gotta punch a hole and tie the ribbon!it was super hard work i muz say,for everynite i gotta work till ard 3am and wake up next morning finding myself starting work aft having breakfast!well,then came christmas eve!morning gotta wake up damn damn earli ard 8am despite clubbing with pals till 4am lolz!was suppose to dl some fotos to compile for my kau heah instructors lolz!then in the end gotta go down to collect the cd form cos something cock up lolz!so bike down to mrt station and get from jeremy...before that gotta meet huili and daren to collect video stuff...then rush back tot got abit of time to sleep but then realised that i've missed out doing some stuff!so rush to complete the pressies~!then aft that,started working on the comp to prepare the fotos to burn for my instructors!abt 3 disc per person and i've got like 10 instructors lahz!!!super xiong lolz...then rushed out to meet them to go over to gillian's place to cook!i belong to the KITCHEN PARTY MAN!!!see below:

had dinner and sang KTV...then had gift exchange of a lifetime!we gotta kissed the person that we've picked the gift from!irregardless of sex!im kinda sway,both also guys!ahahaha...daryl picked my gift and he gotta kissed mi and i picked mingchun's and gotta kiss him!they both super zhuan lolz!ahahaha....then came the countdown,then sang christmas carol loudly!cheered etc...super fun!then played blind mice and catching until gillian's mum came back!then we proceed to the playground nearby to play lolz!well,i realised that i've gotten a big ba lu KU on my left elbow!most probably i hit it while i was being trampled over while playing in gillian's house!then went for supper at chomp chomp ard 3am...then return to gillians place for a short nap and woke up ard 7 to sing KTV and make breakfast!then played until ard noon before i go home to take a quick bath and rush to my auntie's place for christmas luncH!aft which,i sneaked out to go back and join the mumbo peeps!when i reach gillian's place,they were abt to leave!so collected the ice box and tumbler to send back to my aunties place!aft which went home lolz...but before we left gillian's place,we decided to meet for xmas dinner at nite!so the yandao came up with the yandao pact!anyone that's late will have to give a treat to the rest later!gotta reach SOFRA at shaw towers at 7pm sharp!well,by the time i reach home,i was like 4pm liaoz...and then i slept till like 1730 and bath and rushed out...sensing that i might be late,i took at cab from my place ard 1820 onli to reach there ard 1830!im the freaking earliest lahz!then waited for the rest!well,in the end,im the onli one that's earli!or should i juz say,im the onli one ON TIME!!!Jh and diana was 1 min late...and the rest were atrocious man!half an hour and an hour!then end up they onli pick up the service tab lolz...but to be truthful,i paid quite an amount also lahz...the food at SOFRA was damn good...but the qty not there lahz!price not too bad also...kebah is a die die muz try!sultan's Kebah is pretty nice!!!i love the fragrance tea!!!nice nice!!!

2 tribes woman fascinated by candles grp foto @ sofra

the yandao fotos over at Sofra!!! im shaking santa's hand @ tcc the 3 muscular yandaoS @ cinema

....then aft that,went over to TCC for dessert~!well,was pretty full so i chose not to take the hot choco lava cake!super sinful man...well,hav kuahlah latte instead!so-so nia!!!hahaha...then went over to catch NARNIA!!!well,the show not bad lahz...but not very spectacular lahz!the show ended ard 2plus...then went for supper...prata AGAIN!!!then tok cock...planning for the chalet and coming out with the theme party that we're suppose to hav to add an element of fun in it!!came up with retro theme,newspaper man,nerd man,space look....many many more!then end up settling for underwear nite!its gonna be fun i hope!last yr had a nice pyjamas party!!!not bad lahz...ahahaha...hmmm...now gotta go sleep liaoz!gotta rest well for the chalet man...that's afew topics that i wish to share...but now im getting real TIRE!!!fatigue building up and coming hard on mi man.......zzZZZZzzzZZzZZzzzzzZzzzzzzzZZZzzzzz

well,today went for a thanksgiving dinner at gracehaven!!!well,first time attending such an event!its quite 'holy' in a sense to mi cos im a self declared free thinker!!!well,there was alot of prayers and jesus kinda stuff!!!but well,followed thru the whole ceremony!!!it was pretty fun and enjoyable seeing the emcees and audiences singing those christmas caroL!!!aft that,the residents performed for us a few items!there's magic show,hip hop dance,drama musical...quite cool lah!one of the performance i loved most is when the kids section came up to sing!!!the kids are so damn CUTE!!!the smiles,the song,the harmony...it was wonderfuL!at that very moment,i felt reassured that the time i've spent volunteering there ain't wasted cos i've made frenz with the boys!!!sometimes they can be naughty,but there's this innocent inner self that made mi feel like helping them more!its juz as simple as juz befriending them!!!well,aft the performance,we had a buffet dinner!the food was superb!!!freaking hella of food to chose from man!while eating,chat with some of the boys that's under our program and found out weicong got into trouble and was sent to the boy's home!!!i was shocked and im pretty upset!for the fact that i dun expect weicong to be the one that gets into trouble FIRST!!!well,i guess i wont be able to see him for quite sometime liao,or ever forever!i hope he realised his mistakes and not commit them again liaoz!hope he adapts well to the new environment!!!seriously hope he wont get into any more trouble liaoZ!!!well,after which,waved goodbye to the boys and rushed home to prepare my xmas gift!i think i should be able to make it all in time bah!i realli hope so!haven been sleeping well due to this lolz!gotta rush if not i wont be able to make it by sat!!!...god bless man!!!anywayz,today i realised that its quite interesting to actualli sing christmas carols!esp when there's lotsa kids!the feeling is great...definitely spurs mi on to sing along with em!...oh god...i think im getting crankY!!!gtg and continue with the gifts liaoz...if not i'll NV be able to make it in time...will update again bah!cya....

woahz...im back!haven been blogging for quite awhile!anywayz,have been freaking busy with my camp stuff and all...now that camp is over,now im busy with the xmas party which will be happening tml!!after which will be the instructors xmas party and new yr chalet!!!

Camp Mumbo 2005:
This yr,im once again selected as the CI!!!yeah...this is the 2nd time im the CI(chief instructor) for a grp!the previous time i was a CI,i didn't realli enjoy it cos of many many reasons!but this yr,it ain't the same!i realli felt happier and enjoyed myself much more!i felt that i've improved probably becos i noe i might have to take on a heavier responsibility next yr!all these, i've to thank the instructors in my grp for making it happened!though i have quite a few first timer instructor,they were realli happening and responsible!hardworking and they realli helped mi alot...realli muz thank them!besides having first timers,i felt that my old timers like gillian cassandra and rog have improved ALOT!!!esp gillian...felt so proud and happy for them!all these adds to my happiness as a CI too...its the general performance of the grp that matters!not onli the kids but the instructors tOO!!!well so go into details of the camp liaoz...

Day 0:
first day the instructors have to get to the camp site to prepare the grp corners and stuff!anywayz,i was there and was happy that my grp have the highest no of instructors present at the moment!starting to built the zi highness in our grp!having fun doing stupid things,coming up with more and more weird ideas to decor our grp corner!had realli alot of fun with my instructors!though they still like not very warm up for the camp at all!!!hahaha,then went thru our cheers with them so that when the kids comes in,we can provide the extra voice for the grp!can feel that my instructors had quite abit of fun on day 0...MORE to come...aft which,went to S11 for dinner and then went back to camp to learn the dance and select camp file...they made the CIs play dunno wat pepsi cola 123~!!!luckily i din lose out first...if not will get the purple camp file!damn sianz...ahahah...then i lost at the sec round and their both benson and yongtang stupidly gave mi the RED file which i wanted in the first place...hahaha...ZHUAN AH!!!some more onli the RED file got special files inside one lolz...they all DUMB DUMB!!!ahahaha...aft which got out grp listings and by that time was ard 2 liaoz...zzzZZzZZZZZZ

day 1
woke up at ard 0645....though din have lotsa rest,muz start psycho-ing myself that we're gonna have lesser and lesser sleep from day 0 onwards!!!the kids came to our grp corner and we started doing the ice breaking lolz...i din realli noe wat im doing and i juz anyhow whack!impt point is that the kids muz have fun!then,the instructors took the initiative to teach the children cheers and all...that was a pretty good start...the kids in my grp started wanting mi to bomb other grps and so WE DID!!!they were pretty high aft that...ahahaha....quite warm up even though they came in pretty late as compared to other grpS!!!ahaha...played ball games in the morning lolz...games like captain ball,soft ball and floorball!!!then we had the balloon boat making competition also!ahahaha...then my kids were like,i wanna help kor kor do the boat!!!hahaha,at one moment felt so good sia...so many kids wanna help mi!!!hahahaha...muz hav created a impact on them liaoz...!!!then during dinner,one of my fav camper(ashton) came telling mi...kor kor,i wanna play floorball again!!when can we play again!!!ahahaha...aft that was sing-along on day 1!!this is one of the best day 1 sing-along as compared to previous few yrs!!!the instructors did a great job!i enjoy it pretty well!afterwhich we went over to bishan park for some search games!imagine bringing a bunch of kids to peep tactically in the park at nite?ahahaha...amazing shit huH?ahahaha...aft which,went back to camp...the kids slept at ard 1...and we went for debrief...most of the instructors slept ard 2plus 3...while mi viv and sokkee were in the hall sharing our experience for the day and san came...then had a small debrief of our performance with him too!then end up sleeping ard 3plus four...next day gotta wake up at 730....super shagged lahz...worst thing is i slept in the hall...the children woke up like 6plus can?all these hyper active ding dongs!!...hahaah...

day 2:
went to sentosa with the kids!its ZOUKOUT DAY!and i promised myself that i'll make it to the event this yr!but sad thing i didn't!!!but its also good on the other hand cos i enjoyed myself with the kids at sentosa too!!!while my frens were enjoying their booze ,rocking the beach,i was super high on SINGING with kids at the Burgerking open space @ sentosa!NV ever had so much fun singing with kids!!!seeing my instructors getting more involved with the kids enjoying themselves and all made mi felt accomplished!firstly,to let the kids enjoy,secondly,my instructors had fun!seeing those smiles were juz enugh to let mi tell myself i've done a good job!ahahaha......though i dun get to get very involved with the kids like instructors do,i realli felt very very HAPPY!!!one weird incident is that during lunch,we onli had 3 spoons to go ard 20++ ppl!so we taught the kids how to use the styrofoam box to eat lunch!!!so more we were rite outside the merlion!alot of tourist walked past and saw the kids using parts of the styrofoam box to eat lunch and they muz be thinking if singaporean kids eat lunch using this method?ahahaha...well,before lunch,we had fun at this bite the banana off the string station!!!very fun!the kids enjoyed and i enjoyed sabo-ing the instructors!have u guys ever tasted banana marinated with tomato sauce?ahahaa...that's wat i gave my instructors!!!ahahaha...im sure they enjoyed it!!!the kids too...sentosa was the day we realli bonded well with one another plus getting more warm up and less shy with one another liaoz!well,today's general performance of the grp has improved tremendously!both instructors and kids...esp instructors as a whole!cos of the debrief the nite before i guess...everyone realised wat was going wrong and rectified it immediately!GOOD GOOD!!!hahaha...anywayz,aft going back to sch,the kids washed up and went to sleep while we continue our debrief late into the nite and practice the dance item for the kids!partnered sanjie and nicole...quite fun lahz...both very much diff from jolie!!!my first dance partner!jolie is so super hyper laz...but the latter 2 also not too bad...juz that jolie is way out of reach!!hahaha...then i rushed home to get some stuff for the next day!!!ended coming back to sch ard 3 plus then went to sleep!

day 3:
this is the last day for us to spend with the kids!off course i do wanna make it a memorable one for both my instructors and kids!most imptly,create an impact for all...well,woke up ard 8 lahz...then had some grp time!im proud of my instructors for being able to co-ordinate the show for the kids though they're here the first time for most!very impressive!well,kids can be devils at times!!!ahahaha...afterwhich had a telematch session whereby i left for awhile to settle some stuff!when i came back,i got straight into this game whereby i had to run and go all the way to the floor whereby there's a pool of flour and some soft jelly sweets lying inside!gotta use my mouth to pick them up!!!ahahaha...most imptly,the kids enjoy can liaoz,it doesn't matter?even try blowing bubbles in mud pool and eating grass!!!what else cant i do man?ahaha...then aft lunch,had the obstacle course!!!this yr we finally revived the mud pool and at a larger scale!though i remembered that i always hated to play mud pool in the past,aft which they stopped for a couple of camps and suddenly they revive it now!im super excited!most impt of all,wanted all the instructors to try it out...its a experience of a lifetime!though this time round,its a bigger scale mud pool,but its definitely not as powerful as before in terms of the mud concentration!mud in the past use to stick onto ur body aft u come out...this time,its more of like mud water!!!ahahaha...so not that powerfuL!but its super long!definitely worth paying 150 for that long canvas~!well,for the obstacle course,there's this special moment whereby i felt we're so super high and motivated as well as well bonded with the kids!its definitely the pipe game!to put it simply,there's this big water pipe with lotsa holes hangin vertically!there's a ball inside and we are suppose to fill the pipe with water to retrieve the ball...at first onli the kids can take part and they couldn't stand the water pressure below!so came the instructors!was the first to go down la...cos im the CI mah...so sat at the bottom to cover the holes with highest pressure lolz!then the kids were all ard mi...and trust mi,its super shag!!!imagine mi sitting down there for near to 30mins and i cant move ard!!!almost cramp lahz...but its fun...with kids crowding ard mi,enduring the cold water that's being splashed down by the station ic...at first the kids were like...dun wan...dun wanna get wet!then when everyone got wet,they were rite into the fun!!!then started asking them to sing songs while we continue with our task!firstly to divert their minds off thinking that its super shag covering the holes and the damn cold water that's being splashed down on us!sec,it realli got them quite high!singin longer and longer as if there's no tml!its definitely a good warm up for the campfire too!the kids were freaking high,so were my instructors!the scene realli touched my heaRT!!!hahaha...well,im getting cranky man!!!hahah...ohh,back to the mud pool lahz,some of the instructors that ended earli definitely enjoyed saboing some other instructors lahz!SEEKING REVENGE!!!ahahaha...well,my ladies should well noe what they were doing man!well,i onli knew wat was happening at the very last nite lolz!ahahah...that's most probably becos im not a good bitcher...ahahah!!!besides the mud pool,there's the blindman walk on the field...many of us got trick by peishan to crawl into a rubbish bin lahz...well im not that stupid!!!ahahaha...then crawl towards san's station to taste some food lolz....there's a freaking disgusting mixture whereby they mix afew stuff together and get ppl to taste it!!!hahaha...i think i din managed to get that man!ahaha...there's also this spiderweb station whereby san was ard...he spoke to mi for awhile and gave mi some very encouraging words lolz...that jolly well motivated mi even more!for the fact that san seldom praises ppl lolz...he was very well known for being the disciplinarian man!!!very strict...fierce and all...ahahaha....shiok lahz...but gotta thank my instructors as well!!!they are also part of this,my support pillars!THANK YOU!!!!hahaha...after which,the next major and last event of the camp for the kids was the campfire!we had lotsa fun at the campfire and our grp item was not too bad after all!!!this yr,all the items put up by the kids were pretty violence based!!!like stabbed here and there...at the very last part,sang the sad songs!!!this is the time whereby im so lost at words man!being the CI,im suppose to speak to the children while singing!and at that very moment,i couldn't think of anything and speak coherently!!!i think i was juz uttering rubbish cos flash images of wat happened thru out the 3 days with the kids flashed past my mind!i cant imagine how much we've bonded with the kids which actualli made some of them cried!even my instructors cried!!!well,i muz admit im was juz trying to hold back my tears!dunno why too...but mayb i juz dun wish to let the kids feel too sad having to leave us at that point in time!well,after we extinguished the fire,we shouted out all the cheers we had learnt for the past 3 days!then we went back to our grp corner for the last time to give out the gifts and collect their barang barang~!afterwhich,the kids were free to go!however,many of the kids stayed behind to get our autographs!this moment,i wrote at my top speed and i wrote on countless files!even kids from other grps!!!ahahaha...besides that,all my fav camper like ziliang(best camper),samuel(special award),nigel,joel....blah blah blah...came to ask mi for my email and stuff...hahah!!!like so famous rite?after the kids left,the instructors were the ones that stayed behind to be crazY!!!ahaha...played lotsa songs on the pa system featuring alot of those past instructor items that actualli made all of us damn high,dancing ard machiam an outdoor club man!ahaha...we also revealed the mortal and angel game which we played thru out the camp!my angel was anna!not bad lahz,she did her job!first person for the whole camp to give present to the mortal(me)!!!ahaahaha...but then,this time round,the game kinda not very fun liaoz!alot of them either dun realli understand how to play or they dun wanna play it the nice way!hahaha...well,at least i hav an angel that gave mi something!but then again,im one of those nice mortals and angels man!i gave my mortal lotsa goodies k??the same goes to my angel even though i wont noe whose my angel on the last day!well,hopefully next yr's game will be better!ahahaha...aft this,we started to clear up the place!after clearing up,we played red indian game to decide which grp shall actualli wash the toilet which is in a mess!!!though most of my kau heah instructors were not in the same grp as mi,still managed to enjoy the game and my team won the game!!!too bad lahz,my poor instructors have to wash the toilet!then suddenly the police came to say they receive complaints that we were too noisy!it was ard 2am++aft which,han broke down and cried while the PHD were in the room with jianshuN!!!she was upset with the behaviour and attitude that we showed despite the police showing up!had some small talk with her to calm her down lahz!then we went for supper at S11 amk central!super funny lah,we went to this noodle stall auntie and sing song for them to get a discount for our noodles~!then say we got member one lolz...all those crap!in the end,the auntie gave up and give us some extra fishcake and otah for free...she also din charge us for extra noodles if we ask for it...super fun!!!aft which return back to the school to sleep ard 4am!but then,when we went back,the kauheah instructors continue bitching together with pamela!ahahaha...the bitching team consists of mi gillian cassandra nicole hongwei and pam!bitch bitch bitch until ard 5am then i left to go back home to bath and go back to camp(army)!when i return to camp,i then realised that i had off in lieu for that day!!!super happy!instead of going home to sleep,i went back to CC to help those that stayed behind to unload stores!after which played some games in the CC conference room!then went home to rest!!!...generalli,i realli enjoyed this camp alot!perhaps that's why im so attached to the ppl over in mumbo!thanxz everybody that made everything that seem impossible,possible!!!thx again...

anywayz,i took quite sometime to actualli type this entry!so stop here for the camp entry and proceed to the next one bah!!!well,we'll actualli finished another event which is the CC xmas party for the kids!it was pretty well organised this yr as compared to the last one!very fun,though i din spent the entire nite with the kids and instructors cos i hav to go over to my aunt's place for a dinner and i join back in straight after dinner!saw my campers coming back once again!so elated to see some of my fav campers lahz!wat's so funny is that even the parents wanna noe who i m cos according to sokkee,two of my fav campers were like always toking abt mi when they went back home to their parents!so they were like who the hell is the kor kor???ahahaha...so they actualli came down to take a look!!felt so proud of myself man!plus,heard from songlin that nigel actualli made a card for mi but forgotten to bring it along with him to the party man!!!im so touched even though the card haven reach mi yet!after the xmas party,we went to jubilee to watch KINGKONG 12.35am!!!well,reached there well before 1235...so we played dog and bone outside the complex!everyone was like looking at us why this batch of idiots playing dog and bone at this timing sia!ahahah...well king kong wasn't really nice but its not too bad lahz!pretty sad for the ending and most imptly,i predicted that joann will cry and she diD!!!ahahah...eventually went home ard 5am...besides this,went for the NTUC beach vball com lahz!sad thing is that we lost!but we weren't the worst!GLAD GLAD!!!hahaha...well,it all boils down to luck lah!so of the pool of teams were not there at all while some had the advantage of lower nets which aid their playing style!but then,all i could say is we lost and im frustrated cos i couldn't help my team get into the sec round!!!sadz...well,shall look for another grp of players liaoz...or mayb i should juz change into a setter bah!!!ahahaha...anywayz,now tire liaoz...gotta rush my xmas stuff out by this fri!ALOT of things to settle and its not done yet!HOW HOW HOW!!!>!^@*&!%#!)@*_im looking forward to the outing this sat liaoz!im sure we're gonna have fun!

nothing much hav realli happened for the past few days.did my dec COG @ the istana.was so called one of the front man but not until the FU LU SHOU goes out to do their stunts!ahahaha,anywayz,its nothing much also!getting kinda bored of doing such stuff liaoz!and wat's worst was the nite before COG,i've spent the whole saturday afternoon training with rong rong and gy @ the beach for the comp on the 17th to 18th.sometimes i realli dread the fact that ppl think they're fucking good and in fact they ain't that good enough for mi to respect them plus they give me a sense of arrogance in them.pls dun think highly of urself...and i dread the fact that certain ppl are juz too over confident or rather,too optimistic to a point which kinda projects a very xialan image of u!anywayz,i shouldn't be affected by others that much!that's wat i've learnt aft speaking to my junior SHAun and he made mi realised that the issues that we've discuss abt was juz rubbish!at least it was rubbish to mi...shouldn't be that narrow minded and hinder others' growth and should be proud of myself for certain achievements i have made!but it still wont stop mi from drawing lines with certain ppl...
after the afternoon games,went over to join my grp peeps for their OLIP!can see that they enjoy themselves very much.went for a nite hike in pierce reservoir on the trail thingy!haven been getting close to nature for sucha long time liaoz!im so freaking enjoying every moment of it under the moonlight!while walking,i remembered the days i've spent with my odac pals doing all the shit and walking tonnes of nitewalks with heavy bagpacks,getting lost in the dark,draggin our feet full of leeches and blisters towards our next camp point!the best thing was during our trusmadi summit push whereby we trek in the dark with out bagpacks and it started raining.morale was pretty low at first cos we haven had dinner till 9pm and it was a cold and hungry nite!then we started encouraging one another and singing song aft song to get out mind off the cold and tiring trek till we reach our summit campsite!i miss those days...but it'll nv be the same again...
oh...camp will be this coming thurs and i seriously feel im lacking of something for mi to realli lead the grp well this time round!but still,im gonna try to act confident lahz...see wat happens then...hopefully my kids wont feel damn sian with someone like mi as their CI lolz...ahaha...will update further another day bah!cya guys