Monday, August 31, 2009
SIBEI DULAN!!!
do wat u guys wan like seriously.i dun feel like doing this anymore.i dunno wat's going thru ur minds but i just feel very disappointed! and i seriously hate this...how nice if you were still here with us. and i kinda blame u for leaving us right now! DAMN...
and LIM WAILUN, i swear ur mind is fucking screwed up!REALLi...CHEEHONG FOR ALL U ONE!u only think of that.NABEI...limbei GAN PUA DULAN NOW!!!seriously.
and i cant be bothered already. it doesn't matter anymore
♥Oh, so vintage... 12:01 AM
Sunday, August 30, 2009
back at home right now. its been awhile since i've updated and i hardly can find time to do this. Only when im back home, i have the luxury of sleeping like nobody's business. however, despite having this little luxury time of mine, im also back home to face the 3 little imps! they really can make my blood boil. i really dunno how to save them and i really dun have the patience with them anymore. i hate the fact that they ain't sensible enough despite their background. i feel very sorry for my aunt and i really feel it in my blood when im scolding the shit out of the kids. enough said,i just feel that my mum's being too lenient on them and kinda spoilt them,plus the simple fact that im not around to watch over them make things worse. perhaps i should come home soon. that's probably gonna happen next sem when lik sin shifts out.
besides those kids at home driving me crazy, the same thing is happening back in hall. somebody complained about my loud music to hall office. Yes,i do admit its my mistake but can't u freaking just come and ask me to lower the volume instead of sending an email straight to hall office. and to think that warrants a super morning call by BEE CHU as i was just about to fall asleep. besides that, im disappointed with how some ppl would just complain straight to SAO when ppl was just celebrating their birthday. and that made uncle tony suffer from PMS for the few days whereby he just takes down anyone matric card no in case anything happens. alot of things happened and i dun like it. JCRC having to force ppl to re run, members switching off even before the end of term*im guilty also*, vball team being so dormant approaching extinction, facing ppl that keeps thinking that he/she did alot but just keep complaining and not helping out, it really gets on my nerves! it has come to a point i dunno how to differentiate friends from foes.on a separate note, i must say i really love my CUBO freshies as well as joint hall social sec. it was a nice supper session despite the turnout that nite.
school wise,its getting abit hectic and messy as i've just managed to finalise my timetable and sub registration. at this point in time, i dunno if i should be happy or sad despite being successful in the scholarship application. This means that i've gotta take 24AUs this sem less FYP! im abit scare now due to the load and i have to be more discipline. time's gonna fly past very soon and exams will be happening once again in a flash.im really afraid that i cant handle all the shit happening around me.i really need to be more discipline to get over all these. i must learn to say no from now on. perhaps wat zann said was right and i need to get away.i'll try on my part.
我们渐接疏远了。这不代表我放弃了。我只想给大家一点空间，好好想想自己想要得是什麽？我觉得我没有办法那麽慷慨的接受你一直不能放开的过去。而就是因为这样，我会愿意放下一切，让你好过一些些。因为在这样下去，我怕受伤害的人会更多。就算不会，我也不希望自己跌的那末深，伤的那末重。
♥Oh, so vintage... 4:43 AM
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
i just feel that im more appreciated elsewhere than you do?that's how i feel.that applies for strangers that i've just met.and i admit i do need attention.however,attention never seems to be on my side. im thinking if that's the hard way for me to learn the bitter truth that u cant seem to let go.
it appears im in my own world.
♥Oh, so vintage... 2:33 AM
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
sometimes,its just so frustrating to see that people dun cherish what they have. why cant i be in their position then?i would love to be there since i know i'll definitely cherish it!DEFINITELY!but well,i just dun have that kinda fate.
deep within,i asked myself,why do i always torture myself?always putting so much more and others not reciprocating?mayb its just me...live it.
i wanna be in your shoes for now.at least i'll feel im loved!
♥Oh, so vintage... 10:33 AM
Saturday, August 15, 2009
its sucha bad day!i swear.
im beginning to wonder if i've changed or you've changed?its getting on my nerves and i hate arguing any more.i dun wanna keep finding excuses to keep everything going,keep everything alive.i really cannot stand it anymore.i need some independence.
im also beginning to wonder if im trying just too hard.so much so that i dunno if wat im doing is right or wrong.been trying hard to keep things alive and i really tried.i just really dunno what's running thru ur mind and that's wat i dun like.it really feels like shit when u're having a good time now while im back here feeling like an arse.
on a separate note,i just wanna get back to hall and live on my own.i dun wanna come home to get nag and scream at.i need my own freedom.i dun wanna face the kids at home.they just make my blood boil.arghx...
*i think im losing myself*
♥Oh, so vintage... 10:55 PM
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
seriously fucking disappointing :(
♥Oh, so vintage... 11:19 PM
Sunday, August 09, 2009
FOC is finally over.bittersweet kinda feeling!really...i really miss those times i were a GL and the feeling is definitely different being anyone else involved in the camp other than being a GL!yes...i could have step up easily to be another GL this year but i din.somehow i do have a lil regrets that im not a GL this year but well,i guess its time to move on.
i dunno if its like wat he said that he purposely didn't wanna mentioned my name first and he actually knew my name.but its really sad and disappointing that im just a photographer to him and and mayb many others. although that feeling sucks,im happy i managed to capture quite a few bit of fotos for this group of freshies for them to take away.im happy we got the best OG but wat matter most to me now would be that this group of freshies enjoyed themselves and will not forget these memories and bonds forge during the camp.most importantly is for them to feel at home and proud to be part of the family and willing to come out and contribute and play a part for the family.
*its not right to compare.perhaps im just jealous.*
♥Oh, so vintage... 9:56 PM
Saturday, August 01, 2009
Hoho...im officially down!after spending a few days at sports camp,im sick!well,everything seems so unreal after all.idky but it just seems so unreal that its my last sports camp.CJ ask me if i feel anything for it,i just couldn't give him a definite ans.besides...SU16 is definitely not that a good year for all.with all the casualties and fever cases,it affected the camp quite abit. morale running low with ppl falling out along the way.
seems like things aint going exactly the way i wan it.its really sucky but im not in control.idk idk idk...the more i noe,the more miserable i'll get.Y Y Y Y Y Y Y Y Y ????M i really that useless?
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♥Oh, so vintage... 12:50 PM
