Tuesday, January 04, 2005
im so pissed off today man!i feel so neglected and wronged by my mum!everything was fine until a few mins before i start this blogging session!had a damn heated arguement with my mum!i realli dun feel like staying home anymore but i noe i cant...she's so freaking biase against mi!HELLO!!!its like i've been staying home for the past few weeks to do all the minor minor stuff at home can?from buying dinner,bringing kids to tuition to sch and back etc...i'm always the one doing all these and wat do i get in the end!not even a thank you lolz!its not that i care abt the thank you lolz but then,my mum juz simply scolded mi for nothing!simply NOTHING!!!she argued that my sis has been doing the mopping and sweeping of floors lolz and she somehow imply that im doing nothing and im USELESS can...i feel so PISSED!i dun wanna stay here anymore cos everything im doing juz dun seem to be able to please them!on the other hand,my sis can do watever hell she wants without being pinpointed!!!all she gets might juz b a small scolding session by my mum!i feel so unfair!and toking abt my sis,i think she's simply getting out of hand and my mum juz dun listens to mi!how STUBBORN!!!my sis have been coming home aft sch and leaving house aft dinner to meet her bf...then come home so late some more!sometimes dun even bother to explain or call to say she'll be back late or something until someone actualli gotta call her and ask for her whereabouts!and some more its damn sian to hav such a lousy sis to some extend cos she will simply give mi attitude when i ask her stuff sometimes!she's completely changed!from bad to worse i muz say!i realli cannot stand her attitude anymore esp when im the one trying to tok to her or ask her stuff nicely and she starts giving mi attitude and sometimes,not even replying to my questions!WAT ON EARTH IS GOING ON MAN!mayb i shall juz stay in from mon to fri and find some ways to not stay home on weekends to make them realise my importance!im so freaking pissed also becos it seems that mum hav the idea that im having hell lotsa fun outside and that's NOT TRUE!im like serving NS can...and all the little time i hav on weekends is definitely impt to mi!not that i wont stay home to help out...but then,there definitely muz b a LIMIT MAN!im realli BLOWING...seriously BLOWING!where's my lifejacket when i need it most!will someone juz understand how i seriously feel!im so hurted by wat my mum had said lahz...but also sad that i've actualli shouted at her juz now...i juz cant control my inner self...will someone pls helP!!!!!!!!!
on a positive note,had 2 driving sessions today!my instructors say i might get my license lahz...but then dun gablah that day can liaoz!im doing fine enough!WHAHA...im so excited but at the same time feeling so lan diaoz cos the driving centre gonna forfeit my 57++ bucks cos i cant manage to sell out my lesson slot for tml morniNG!i feel so lan diaoz!hopefully tonite someone juz get my slot man!dun wish to throw my money away!im so broke!
anywayz,yeah!sch start liaoz...i wish for all my frenz that's back in sch all the best lah!study while u can cos i cant now!i feel so useless and brain dead at this moment!and i've prove to myself the theory that ppl dun cherish something when they hav it...but when they lose it,they yearn for it!it applies to everything...from any form of relationship to studies to money to watever!!!i miss my sch days esp my life in cjc!it's hell lotsa fun,pain joy and laughterS!besides tat,realli muz say im being to miss mumbo activities man!whahaa...and as for my PHDIC members,study hard lehz...esp the 2 of u that's going for As this yr!im more worried for the 2 of u!no doubt im worried for my caspar but i think his doing fine so far lahz...all the best all my dear frenz!take care...
♥Oh, so vintage... 12:43 PM
