Thursday, October 13, 2005
oh gosh...im seriously getting so crazy!blew my top regarding some stupid issues in camp today!for one moment,i realli couldn't take it lying down and had that kamikaze kinda of tots.this is wat happened today:
had our 5km life run today and my coy was super outstanding in a bad way!we gotta run in coy level in a block formation.i wouldn't be mad with it if im still a freaking trainee...but NO!im no longer a trainee and should not be subjected to such a style of running!and to hell with them for running so slowly in that block formation!!!say im ill disciplined for all u wan and i dun care...couldn't even hav the freedom to run at my pace...it looks so stupid too when only my freaking coy is running in a block and having to synchronise our steps!that's how stupid...mind u,we are conducting a run and not a freaking synchronise run sorta thingy man!wat's worse is that we were denied our drink at the mid point whereby there's an allocated waterpoint for those that wanna hav a drink.when some of my frenz went over for a drink...my OC shouted at us and said who gave u permission to drink and all that sort of things...worst still,he denied us of our drink and made us look super stupid by making us do pushups along a slope and wanting us to get back into 3 rows in that freaking position crawling ard like dogs!!!and he said something like..."its not even 5km and u guys feeling shagged???"....im super irritated and he started making us do pushups...at that very moment,i looked as if im going to kill him~!im serious...he started with 20 fast pushups and hold for awhile and continued another 20 at a slightly slower pace and 18more...guess y 18???for ur info,he was doing with us.but from wat i can see,almost 3/4 of them died or lagged seriously aft doing 40 including the specs and officers except for him.and he wanted to prove that he was strong and he still saw ppl that still can do more and so he tried his luck at attempting to do another 20...but at the rate he was doing,i was up to task and at the 18th one,he suddenly stopped and say...HEY u guys shagged rite...cannot do rite...???nvm...situp position change...!!!bullshit lolz,its more of like he cant do anymore and most of them cannot tahan liaoz and so he changed to situps...he made mi felt like a fool and worse than a trainee....afterwhich,we continued our run back to camp and thru-out the run i was giving him that kinda attitude face...feeling threatened,he conducted a stand by bunk for us!!!and i was so freaking sure that its juz a find fault session.cos no matter how clean is our bunk,he will juz punish us for those minor details...and i was very sure his out to get me...so i was so super prepared...in the first place,im a very tidy person in bunk,so i din hav to use too much time.but then,he gave us like less than 20 mins to wear our smart 4 plus clearing up for inspection!!!and like wat i say,he was out to get mi...he came into my bunk seeing that everything is in position and pretty dust free,he purposely went to the wooden cupboard and find a speck of dust and made mi do 20 pushups at first...then he continue to walk ard and find as many faults as he can!he even checked my attire which was in tip top condition cos no one else irons their smart 4 but i did long long ago leaving distinctive lines!!!and he even tried to find fault with my boots and he squat down to check if i've polished it.afterall,he couldn't find anything else and had to move on to the rest of my 3 seniors in my bunk!their area wasn't in a very bad condition and he din realli hav the chance to fault us badly...but aft he moved on to the rest of the 6beds whereby all of them wasn't even in camp,he penalised us badly and made us sign 1 extra!!!that's super unfair and very bias for the fact that mi and my rest of the plt mates feel that my bunk wasn't the worst!!!and the fact that there's onli 4man left to clean a 10men bunk in less than 20 mins,that's super unreasonable!and im so guilty to the rest of my 3 seniors for the fact that im very sure my oc was out to get mi!and i've gotten them into signing that ridiculous 1 extra duty!aft which he went on to other bunk and gave one frenz 3 extra duties for not standing properly during inspection.he even said to him in the face that his slack...and mind u!we're not the slackest plt can...in fact,im very certain that we are the plt that works the hardest than the rest of my UNIT!!!one damn stupid thing that happened is that he find fault with a pair of black boots with white laces...this incident shows that his not even fit to be our OC!!!cos he dun even noe that that pair of boots is for our performance and it has always been a norm!imagine the head of a coy that dunno any shit abt wat is the standard attire for his men and stuff...OMG...his such a loser!!!and i voiced out to my PC regarding my unhappiness and somehow,the rest of my plt mates managed to make mi postpone my kamikaze tots!and my poor PC got to sign 3 extras too and im quite sure its becos he belongs to our plt...cos we are the most senior plt left and he felt threatened!!!i realli cant take it anymore...someday,he will get it man!hopefully,he goes to thailand this weekend and dun ever come back!he dun deserve to be back with us man!to hell with him...
i do realise that im kinda rash todaY and i cant explain why!why cant i just calm myself down and think abt the whole situation and all the possible consequences?my god...wat's happening man?hope i've learnt something from today's incident man!anyone feels that im in the wrong?i juz dun wanna be someone that can be pushed over man!cos i feel that once i shut up and let everything pass,there will always be a next time!but mind u,i wont always be like this!anywayz,currently planning to go on a scuba course!its getting into action soon!mayb as soon as this weekend...will see how!im so excited now!!!im so missing the beach aft missing it out juz last sat!!!hopefully i'll be going down this sat then!as for those frenz taking their exams,all the best~!
♥Oh, so vintage... 1:00 PM
