opps...just realised that i haven been blogging for quite some time...15days to be exact and that's half a mth!!!anywayz,haven been doing much except for playing more and more beach vball and watching more animes.after last sat's session at the beach,i realised that i've gotta buck up on my wrist power man!im gonna start training and stuff and dec is coming!!!i can't afford to slack for the fact that i wanna break my 9min barrier(2.4km) before the start of next yr!!!judging from my timing and present condition,its kinda hard to cut 6 secs to go below 9min due to the frequent pain felt at my ankle and knees.i hope i can achieve this goal by this yr and im starting to clock my runS!!!and speaking about running,my PC just hinted to me that he wants me to join the interformation x-ctry this yr which is happening quite soon.NO was wat i told him for the fact that i seriously think im not good enugh and the fact that others have already been training for it unlike me.its not fair and putting me in the comp wouldn't change anything!besides,come december,i'll be freaking busy!!!camps and more camps,competitions and tonnes of gatherings which i foresee.im getting so excited!

i've been watching this sch drama show on cable tv channel 55 recently and somehow,i actually started to think of going into teaching.somehow,it seems that i like the feeling of being able to shape someone's life turning them into useful citizens.besides that,being able to help and add value to students really feel good.esp when ur efforts are recognised by the students!the sense of achievement is there and u feel good abt it.but then,am i going in the wrong direction?i cant be certain if im really up to it.but im seriously considering it as one of my options!for the fact that i dun even noe wat i wanna be for now.but as far as im concern,i noe i juz have to complete my MAE course first and try out teaching in the later part?i really dun noe.

as for my volunteering session at the home,its once again another fruitful and enjoyable one.it gives mi another sense of satisfaction to be able to be part of the boys,imparting knowledge and helping them to understand the outside world better.below is my acct for my NYAA journal:

" 12th November 2005,my overseas diving trip got cancelled due to the monsoon and so,I joined them back for this interesting session back in gracehaven home with the rest of the volunteers and boys.As usual,we got back into the usual activity room that we always use.This time round,I realised that the boys actually went back to the groups that we previously had for the aeroplane making session.In a sense,it gives me the feeling that these boys actually felt that sense of belonging to the group that we previously had which made me feel good.It means that they’re doing well with us and they actually enjoy our company.Especially when we got to know through the home coordinator that there was 2 boys that actually cancelled their precious home leave to join us for the program that very day.One was weicong and the other one was cai tian.I’m especially surprised that Cai Tian would actually give up his home leave for the program as his one of the boys that don’t really show much interest in the sessions that we’ve conducted.However,managed to talk to them abit here and there to find out what’s going on in their life and found that they really treat us as friends,opening up to us better and responding to our requests and sessions better.It’s definitely a good progress.

Next,we’re right into the balloon powered car making session.As usual,we read the instructions given and both barry and pelvis got right into the mood to being competitive.They started putting everything together using what was given.Pelvis is one of those rigid kids.What he actually constructed was what he actually saw.When I asked him if he could actually think of a better way to improve his car or change the design,his relunctant and he say its better to the model shown to them.It somewhat tells me that his actually feeling insecure and wouldn’t want to venture out of his comfort zone and is afraid of failure.When we first try out his car,it turn out that it didn’t work out well and immediately,he turned to the volunteers for help and expect them to settle it for him just by leaving his model with us.After awhile,we managed to get him back into action by asking him to sit beside us and we assist him in repairing his car.As for Barry,he did follow the instructions given and did something like the model given.But the thing about Barry is that he actually think of ways to further improve the car such that it will work better.He could make good use of what was given and adapted to the situation should the need arise.His a very independent worker and demonstrate good reasoning skills when we ask him about his design.Once his car gets into trouble,he actually troubleshoots and repair it by himself.And when he can’t figure out,he’ll ask for help and that’s where we come in.After some talk with him,I actually realised that its actually his circle of friends that’s affecting him.I realised that his actually someone who can reason quite well and know what is right and what is not.But well,he gives in to peer pressure easily which could well explain his behaviour when his out with bad company.Generally,Barry is someone that I think is capable to do well and can contribute to the community!

Well,this time round,I got to leave before the session ends and I’m glad that the kids actually said goodbye to me when I was leaving despite me making a quiet retreat.I’m enjoying every moment with them and it really spurs me on when I see that my efforts are appreciated by the kids.Till then,I’m looking forward to the next session with the boys. "
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anywayz,read this article on the new paper yesterday regarding this volunteer helping those kids with terminal disease to fulfil their wish.its pretty interesting and i felt that its a very good idea.being able to help those kids fulfil their final wish really gives me a kind of satisfaction!!!i put myself into the shoes of those children,if i were to contract a terminal disease and there's kind hearted ppl like that volunteer being mentioned to help mi fulfil my wishes,i'll be so happy and would die with no regrets.at least i've managed to do things that i would have wanted to do if i have more time in this world.there should be more of such organisations man.anywayz,juz felt its good to share something like this and sometimes,its really a pleasant experience to help someone in need.

on a lighter note,now busy with the upcoming ntuc beach vball comp.finally settle the team members and im glad rong rong have actually joined us.the team is almost the same as the one we field 2 yrs ago for the quiksilver beach vball comp which we won 2nd place.now that we've changed weejim for guanyou and the standard of beach vball comp getting higher and higher,we're juz joining for fun and experience!realli enjoy playing vball on the beach during the weekend.a way to keep myself off the busy orchard on those weekends and at the same time doing sports to keep fit.isn't it a good idea?hehe...besides beach vball,camp preparations are coming into play to.this yr im the CI for one of the grps.gotta organise the camp for grp preparations as the camp meetings kick start afew weeks ago.abit stress lahz...for the fact that we have more new instructors this yr and i have 3 of them in my grp.bonding wise abit hard for mi cos i dun realli noe how to get them together,but still,im confident that my grp is good and so are my members!this time round abit more stress also becos we seldom have time to meet due to army,exams,personal commitments!and also,this time round,i've gotta play the more vocal role than the first time i was a CI.for the fact that i dun hav ppl like shaofeng to take over the whole show!!!haha...good and bad...will see in time to come!anywayz,gotta stop here...juz wanna let my odac peeps noe that im looking forward to meeting u guys this dec and as well as my class mates!!!very long nv meet up liaoz...wat happened>????ahahaha...hang on for those still having exams and good luck for those that have finished theirs waiting for results that is....