looking back for the past 2 yrs 2mths,i believe i've become stronger in the psychological aspect.met lotsa ppl from all walks of life,experience hardship with a bunch of like minded individuals to form a team.also encounter ppl that's way different from the acceptable social norm and learn how to actually help to bridge gaps between these ppl and the rest.

BMT was great and i had lotsa fun.remembered that i was always down with fever while i was in tekong and its not that i really want it.i wouldn't say im not use to military life but it's just freak-ness that made mi ill most of the time during major exercises.handled weapon and grenade for the first time and the experience was great.was put in a section with so many funky peeps,singing hokkien songs while we route march and encouraging one another along the way.sharing rations or sort when we run out of it and sleeping together outfield was great.though i would say that we dun realli meet nowadays,im glad i've met this bunch of crazy shit.ppl of different personalities coming together and living under one roof,transforming from boys to men.the thought of it was just crazy.well,the only regret in BMT is that i din perform or rather like wat ppl say wayang my way to OCS.and during my BMT period,it was also sad that my grandpa passed away.lotsa things were happening in a flash and im so in a lost.was clubbing very frequent during that period of time too...afterwhich POP,was posted to MP.

Posted to MP...mixture of feelings.was like questioning myself,m i so cmi that im posted to MP as a men?pretty ashame of myself for the fact that im the only from odac that din make it to commander position.besides that,i failed my sect com in BMT cos he was like telling mi i expect u to be at least a specialist.felt like a failure at times.on the other hand,i was kinda happy also cause i have always wanted to be a Military Policemen.it wasn't easy to get to Provost Unit in the first place and i grab my opportunity during BMT when i was selected for an interview.well,i got an offering from Air Force for the C-cube thingy but i rejected them cos i wanted to be a pilot or a WSO for fighter pilot.Besides the pride discipline and honour that MP has to inbuilt in them,the job scope of an MP is something which i look forward to.its one of the few vocations that you're actually carrying out peacetime ops.for real...can get injure or killed or anything.we're going ard spotting for offenders and detaining offenders like the police force.besides peace time roles,we also have war time functions.that's the interesting thing being an MP.well,adjusted well to the the MP basic training.in fact i think i did pretty well and was very serious abt training at that time and was much more focused than i was in BMT.perhaps knowing that i've not done good enough to get me where i wan in BMT made mi fell hard and realise that i should be more proactive.was pretty discipline and motivated to do well.there were many tests and i was consistently doing very well even scoring the highest for the entire batch once.fitness wise i was trying to prove my worth and eventually got my gold.improved my 2.4timing further and did my Personal best of 9:06 here.improved my pullups too to 15.i fought hard for my posting within the Provost Unit.somehow i knew i wanna wear the smart no 1 ceremonial dress and learn to do fancy drills.APC was the place.and during our basic training period,they were forming a new 6 SIR poi mp plt and im kinda being spotted to join them.its more of for the elites at that time and i actually got in at first.so i tried working my way out of the system.tok to PC tok to PS ask Sect Comm for help cos all i wanted at that time was to get to Active Provost Company than to go 6 SIR.eventually i managed to do a swop and off course i did apologise to the 2 specialist that were asked to come over to our training course to hand pick the members for the 6 SIR force.im thankful for their recognition but i told them wat i wanted and they respect my decision.im thankful.

after our MP basic POP,for those posted to APC,we were sent for the Basic Silent and Precision Drill Squad training.it was a gruelsome and stressful 2mths.we had our seniors taking the course with us too and some idiotic sect com that's just one batch abv us showing us authority.they were super unfrenly and were out to kill us.just waitin for us to get back to our own coy and they'll show their powers.eventually managed to pass out from the course and we got back to our company for our personal training.initially was tekan by some of the specialists.nv greet,dunno their names,go canteen and sleeping in bunk also kana.very low morale.everyone from our batch of basic was basically staying out and enjoying life.no tekan,less duties and enjoy nights off while we were doing drills under the hot sun every day,no nights off and stay out,no canteen break,even after office hours,no mess to use, no newspapers,no magazines,no entertainment but only can polish boots and iron uniform.life was bad.i managed to get out of the shit faster than the rest by passing my orientation drills faster.i was one of the 3 that passed out first out of the batch of 20 ppl.was really proud of myself and that's when i start to get some privilleges.you learn to earn ur respect and benefits and not demand for everything.just when u tot once orientation drills is over and that's it,there comes the advance SPDS training.SUPER DUPER TOUGH.doing warmups with weapon,being pumped over and over under the hot sun,running with ur weapon round and round the parade square.Those were the days.Sweat and blood were lost at the parade square.no doubt there were times of fun and laughter.training together with ur batch encouraging one another and learning to work as one was bittersweet.managed to pass out of advance SPDS being the first few and mounted squad.Tot that i will become an instructor but in the end it didn't happen.its just that my PS din wan mi to be one.Actually alot of seniors tot i would become one but i failed them.But well,abit sad but not realli into being an instructor also.perhaps im just abit too problematic for them to handle and tat's y im a bench player.but no doubt i got my chance to perform @ major performances to.Im like one of the first team type of players when it comees to that.Being a non instructor was something which i feel was more suitable for mi at the end and definitely ppl will say im just jealous.but trust mi,at that point in time,im already very slack and on top of that,an instructor have to give up alot of personal time which i couldn't and wouldn't have sacrifice willing.im thankful for that man.the good thing for mi was that even though im not a instructor,the instructors of my batch din really draw a line with mi and sometimes we actually can sit and discuss abt things happening around meant for instructors to hear onli.Im very honoured.i even performed the one last performance @ Suntec with almost all the instructors.out of the 6 performers,im the onli one that's not a instructor man.even the junior instructor din managed to perform.not that im yaya,but sometimes i think im not bad but not very good also.It all depends on mood.haahaha...to date,i've actually 40 Guard of Honour parades,7 prestige Guards ceremony,5 Change of Guards (Guardsmen) and 7 Change Of Guards (SPDS performer),performed on Mindef Pride Day @ Warriors Hall,Performed in front of near to 8000+ crowd in Singapore Indoor stadium during the ACF and did 3 NDP preview and 1 actual performance.Besides that,performed at Army Career fair at Suntec.Did tonnes and tonnes of rehearsal parades which easily amt up to 100 thru out my whole life in Active provost unit.I also had the chance to go for Operation bLitz whereby we were out there spot checking military vehicles.Had a chance to play volleyball for Mindef Formation in Inter Formation Competition 2005.being an MP also means having a chance to visit detention barracks,shooting of a Machine Gun and best of all,a Pistol whereby no many will get a chance to shoot.i also get to visit the istana like crazy and come face to face with various foreign ministers,ambassodors and our local ministers and president.thru out my stay in APC,i realli enjoyed myself and i pride myself that we're the only MPs that's actually working this hard.With Pride and discipline maintaining our Honour.those were the days.

well...gotta run.meeting up kenneth and alvan for supper liaoz!im feeling so lost now as to wat i will become when im going back for reservice.