well...as im typing this,im struggling with my lab report and i m sure this is gonna take quite some time man.the more significant happenings is actually Universe mambo nite,RAT program progress as well as completing a litre of tears drama and why the freak im still staying in hall during recess week!!!

first thing first,Universe Mambo.well,im quite disappointed but i cant blame anyone.the attendance was bad.CMI!!!but then again,im beginning to wonder if im the bad guy man!well...sry if i actually kinda "apply" any pressure to ask you guys to go if i actually did.i kinda expected that kinda response but i still wanna cfm with those from my og if they're going in case we're like waiting for no one.so i actually went ard and ask if each and everyone's going.it ended up with only 5 ppl going from music WORLD!!!super happening rite?im very disappointed but then yea...everyone have their point.its recess week and they need to study for the quizes coming up.and ya,some doesn't like clubbing,some sick,some have other commitments etc.in fact i was thinking,why did i actually still go ahead with the clubbing session when i have 2 quizes 1 proposal ,1 meeting and 1 lab report to rush?mayb i just still dun have the urgency to do things but i noe i'll get it done by hook or by crook!!!i still went hoping to get back that kinda feel that we had during our music "clean" clubbing fun immediately after SU13 week.it was realli a scene that i couldn't forget and im pretty sure we all enjoyed ourselve alot!but its just merely 2mths and things have changed drastically.how can we come out with ways to maintain this kinda relationship with fellow SU13 peeps to entice them to stay with sports club and help out with Sports club as and when we need them.losing them is the last thing we wanna see.anywayz,went for mambo with kenneth and yingying.then i met my frens and stick with them for awhile.had quite a bit considering the fact that i wasn't really in the condition to drink.didn't slept the nite before.so i got a headache after drinking laz.then waited outside for kenneth and ying ying to go back to hall together.instead we followed some others for supper and came back to hall like thurs morning 5 plus.slept for like 2 hours plus and i got woken up by kenneth!hahaha...well,usually after waking up i cant go back to sleep so i just rushed my last min proposal clearing up etc.then went for meeting in the afternoon.the RAT program proposal was pretty oki and well accepted cos they didn't realli managed to bring us down with any tough questions.we provided a couple of alternatives in case plan A cannot work.now we just have to go for recce and try to improve our presentation of the proposal for submission to SAO!next week xiong again.i kinda feel sad for geok(publicity) for the meeting.she kinda got banged upside down for her initial design.though i seriously dun like the 1st draft that she have i didn't really give hurting comments unlike certain ppl.but now im proud of her cos the same nite itself,she came up with another 2 designs which was EXTREMELY GOOD!hahaha...well done!oki...all the best for RAT cos i think it will be pretty interesting.

a litre of tears.i finally completed it.well,even if i didn't drop a litre of tears,i bet there's at least 25ml?im serious.but come to think of it.if the actress wasn't that pretty,cute and innocent looking,will it have the same effect?well...for mi,i definitely find the story very touching and motivating.i really feel for aya as well as her family members.its abt accepting the fact that u've contracted a terminal disease behind everyone's back and u yourself trying hard to act as if nothing have ever happen even though ur parents already knew that u've the disease and trying hard to find means to break the news to you.besides that,during that period you've gotten your first bf and losing him due to ur illness.to trust the bf to leave upon knowing all of her illness.i did question myself if i would ever be able to cope with this?well to date i still cant answer this question.but there's definitely certain things that we cannot predict or say for sure.but as of now,if i were to have a gf that's suffering with this kinda terminal disease,i would say that i will see her thru this last part of her life journey.well...back to the story.as her condition deteriorate,ppl started giving her strange stares and treating her very differently.aya had to cope with all this when she's like onli 15!!!would i ever be that strong and sensible at her age.and i really respect her parents alot.they're realli strong bunch of ppl.there's this situation whereby aya was facing problems with her disability of not being able to walk and she didn't wanna go to the sch for the disabled.instead she stayed on and other parents were concerned with their children being not able to study in a condusive environment with aya ard!they were kinda pressurising aya's teacher and mum to send her to the sch for the disabled.but then being aya's mum,she doesn't wanna try to deprive aya of leading a normal life despite her illness.she was also trying to make aya understand that she needs to move on to a new sch.but still,she suffered the bombardment and made her stand clear that she wants aya to decide for herself.she even quit her job in order to help out at home.at that moment,i asked myself if i were in her shoes,being a parent,would i be able to fight for my child's right and would i be strong enough to live with the fact that my child is going to die?will i be able to give them the best that i can and cherish whatever time that i've left with them.wat kinda of sacrifices do i forsee and will i be able to make them when the time arise?most importantly,wat makes me a good parent?i really dunno but i hope that if i ever have children,i just want them to feel happy and be morally disciplined.it doesn't really matter if they're gonna earn tonnes of money.i dun wish for them to work their ass off and giving them too much stress which we're facing now.but i would love to challenge them in watever way i can.let them learn things thru the hard way and then they're learn their lessons.after which,we come to the point whereby aya could no longer go to a normal sch.she went over to the sch for the disabled and developed a relationship with asu.his a next guy whereby he stand by aya during her down period.it was a wonderful romance that i can't dream of having.and i realli respect asu for being able to love someone for who her character is and not the physical appearance.it realli touched my heart.so how,things progressed to the fact that aya asked for a breakup in order for asu to lead a normal life.she sacrificed in order for asu not too be too dependant on her and she wants asu to get someone better than her.well,it was a painful breakuP!!!after which she started being not able to go to sch anymore and have to stay in hospital.her condition worsen and she didn't give up at all.she struggled to find meaning in life and even suggested to the doc that she's willing to be part of the clinical research for the greater good of ppl suffering from the disease also.realli a nice and kind hearted girl...well...generally,i think we can no longer find such a person anymore during this era.esp when everything is so competitive and humans are no longer that kind friendly and good natured anymore.the devil in ea and everyone of us is growing slowly within our subconsious mind and its mainly society's fault.from this show,i have learn alot stuff and i'll always remember that there's definitely more ppl suffering from wat im enjoying rite now.the best thing is live my life to the fullest and not to give up esp when we meet with just a small problem.no matter how big the problem will be,there will always be a bigger problem somewhere else.arghz..i think im damn shagged liaoz...dunno wat the hell im typing also.

well,im super no life right now.still in hall during this entire recess week.now that im stayin in on fri and probably sat also in order to do up every single shit that i've haven completed.well,might just drop by to help out for the children day section this sun.hopefully im done with studying for my quiz lah.how dead...i realli need time and sry if i have neglected anyone!pls pls...forgive mi!and im realli afraid i mayb fall for something not possible and i seriously hope my fren wont fall for it too.pls cherish wat u have now and dun think too much!i've realised guys sometimes think too much and complicate matters.i hope im just blinded now.may the fog clear asap and i'll be leading back my happy go lucky life that i always wan!!!well...i m...zZZZzzZzzZzZZZZZzZZZZZZ