Saturday, December 09, 2006
finally after all this while of so little rest,so many things to do and stress about,i finally collasped before i get to enjoy.yesterday marks the end of the frustrating RAT race that i had to bear with it for quite awhile.
the race to me was a flop!!!though im the programmer for the race,i can tell you i wont ask anyone to join it cos its so lousy.i couldn't believe myself to force something out in such a short time.infact,im more into the idea of scrapping it in the first place.cos i didn't wanna come out with something that's like crap knowing that we wont be able to come out with something solid within a short period of time frame.but well,we have no choice but to come up with something out of nothing.its really frustrating to work doubly hard when you see others doing little or nothing by the side waiting to reap the rewards.anywayz,freaking woke up early in the morning to walk to src to meet up the rest of the committee to prepare the rat stuff.to my surprise,everyone else except 2 was late.even though more ppl streamed in but then again,LOGISTIC was late too.so wat's with them for coming so late when a sick person woke up and arrived earlier than them?nothing can be done without any logistic and we're practically staring into blank space like idiots having nothing better to do in the morning sitting at the grandstand.
there were lotsa screwups which i think really could have been avoided and at the same time,it shouldn't hapeened which happened that made mi feel like shit.i feel sorry for the participants having to pay for such a lousy quality race which i've organised.i feel so damn fuck up and i seriously hate being in the current com.its realli makes mi feel like puking when certain ppl brought up stuff like if we did this if we did that,it would have been better.and why the hell didn't you bring up this before the race since u can forsee and predict stuff?why wait till things to happen then come up with all this bullshit.so i practically kept my mouth shut since im playing the major role in screwing up the race.though zhenhao did reassure mi and kenneth that the race was alright,but kenneth and i surely felt that the race was a piece of shit.well,i seriously hope jonas will come in to help out and i hope i wont have to quit all this shit.i wanna have a better time planning for ATC.arghx...
bed-ridden for the entire day.went to the doc this morning and was thinking of joining the mumbo peeps at sentosa after catching the doc.but in the end i was just too weak to drag my 1000 ton body out of the house.with the drug effect streaming to every part of my body,i just slept thru the entire afternoon.its such a waste of time.i wanna get well soon cos im leaving for bali sooN!preparations not done and stuff.argh...jialat...IHG starts on mon and i seriously dun think we're gonna make it.perhaps we might stand a chance next year.but now...FAT hope.there's a lot of stuff that i have to do but dun have the time to do yet.arghz...hopefully i wake up early tml to get down and help out for the camp tml nite.i feel so guilty not being able to help at all...pls...i realli dun wan this to happen in the first place.
anywayz,i finally got my posting!im posted to 3rd div Provost BTN.which means im still a MP by vocation.super lucky!!!arghx...now i think i better go sleep cos gotta wake up to go help out tml.must wake up earli...
♥Oh, so vintage... 11:59 PM
