Saturday, April 07, 2007
time check 3am.tonite is definitely 1 of the earliest that im going to sleep man!ever since 2 weeks ago.feeling the fatigue level building up.but as i watch myself striking off the boxes one by one off my calendar,exams are coming!!!DAMN FAST.and the rate im absorbing is way too slow.the only thing i can do now is read as much as i can and pray hard watever i studied will come out and live by that mentality that watever i din study wont come out! i pray hard man.all i wish for this sem is to at least maintain a 3.5 GPA so that i'll still be able to qualify for exchange program.i really wanna go for it and i realised i should have apply this sem for the next sem's program.but well,i didn't!!!oh gr8...and that means i will definitely have to forgo certain stuff before if i really wanna go in the next 2 years.arghx.
well,yesterday spent the nite studying with kenneth eddy and jonas.they're one gr8 bunch of idiots.entertaining one another like mad.we really study till we go crazy.even till the point whereby we were so bored and decided to play with the vending machines at S4.after which we begin to start modelling over at the benches while studying cos there were just too many mozzies flying and irritating us.well,thx to the zhenghong for helping mi get supper man!almost died without food!hahahaa.everything ended with me reaching hall @5 in the morning and zzzZzZZZZzz...
beginning to miss home but then i realli cant go back.i wan homecooked food and i wonder how's granny doing now man.everything settled?and boy...i seriously gotta concentrate on my studies now!i've nv been so stress before.thank you NTU engineering...and i seriously hate the entire system right now.its damn screwed up!arghx...i need more time now or i'll just die.
went for a jog just before this and dropped by SAC to visit ivy and evon.thx for offering the subway ivy but i dun think i can realli eat anymore!tummy showing and my fitness really went down lahz!!!jialat.i need to train my pullup real soon cos i wanna clear my IPPT for this year!i need to stop munching man!seriously stop munching.and hopefully after exams winston will really come and bug mi to go jogging with him and ah gong lolz!
i'm surprised at what's happening right now.its something which i dun think was very right.but then again,i blurt it out only to kenneth.besides im not the one that started all this shit.and the way i see it right now,it seems like you have the perception that im the source.omg...somehow i feel im mean and i din spread it around except for kenneth.well,u made mi realised how insensible i m cos i didn't even bothered to think of the big picture.im sorry if i really made life difficult for you man!sry man.but then again,i seriously din wan that to happen.i just think y im so stupid not to assess the situation and act according.arghx...deserved to get shot.hope everything will be over soon bah.i hope it won't affect our friendship man...seriously...
shall stop here so i have more time to sleep!hahaha...i realli need more time/at least a 3.5 for next sem.PLEASE...zzzZZZzZZZzzZzZzz
♥Oh, so vintage... 2:57 AM
