Monday, June 18, 2007
today was a bad day!its a very bad day for me.i cant help but feel sian and diappointed about everything.in fact,i didn't really do much and i realised i'm feeling damn sian!what i did was just to go down to office to settle some paper work before heading walking around aimlessly before going to cineleisure for a movie.after which came home before starting doing some work and chatting online.
i'm sure alot of you have heard [ zhong yan ni er ] and somehow,i came to a point whereby i was speechless and began to ponder.yes,i do agree that i'm overboard to a certain extent and come to think of it,i really complain alot but i still do what im suppose to do.basically i just need to voice out my feelings.thanks for telling me off in sucha nice way and i really appreciate it though i really felt damn lousy!and that is the kind of friends that i need.people whose willing to tell me straight in the face that i'm so wrong.i'm sorry and i'll remember and i'll change for the better.
as we were wandering around aimlessly,i was kind of distracted and i really felt that something's missing.really hate this feeling but i just have to bear with it.watched shrek 3 and fell asleep initially.well,basically wasn't really in the mood to enjoy myself and the shagness from working added to this not-so happy meng.
was chatting online with a close fren until she asked me certain questions which i couldn't really answer myself.besides that,heard some other stuff which kind of demoralises me.this aside,i'm happy for you that you did well and it seems that you're having a great time.
there's no point getting disappointed with anyone cause no one knows and all i know is that i'm disappointed with myself.the confidence level should not fall but then again,i'm feeling lousy once again.perhaps i'm just falling sick and feeling weak too.i cant wait for camps to come and my self-imposed deadline will be coming soon.good men die young,should i be a devil?will i???
*i do have initiative but i cant always be the one when there's no reassurance*
♥Oh, so vintage... 10:34 PM
