Saturday, September 22, 2007
was freaking awaken by the pains and aches all over.must be the training yesterday and please do not tell me everyone's the same.YES training was the same for everyone.but its the effort put in that differentiate you from the rest.i hate it when ppl just compares themselves with me when they obviously dun put in that much as me for sure.im willing to give everything but then,it doesn't corelate to whether i'll get the same from others.It just happens for every single thing nowadays.really wonder sometimes if im just really an idiot to think that the world is sucha ideal place to live in.
as i grow older,i just felt that i have become dumber!i realised that i no longer can understand how certain ppl feel and why they behave in sucha a manner.and sometimes i realli wonder if i ever learn from my lessons.wat's with determination and persistence when it nv gets you anywhere.why cant life be as simple as it was when i was back in JC when i last felt so loved by my classmates and all.y can i just live my days just training hard and playing vball every single day.why cant i just have really really good frens whereby we dun have to wear a mask and cut all the pretendence in life?and the best thing is that...i really cant seem to understand woman anymore like how i do in JC.wat the hell is freaking wrong?gRRRrrRRRrrr...and that makes me even dumber!
now i just have lotsa doubts on everything in life.i really start to wonder if i should put in effort in every single thing i do when i seriously dun get the same or even get marked down for watever i've put in.its very depressing and obviously damn off.im feeling super drained and stuff and i really need to get back on track.i need to mug hard,have more time for myself and all my truly lovable and 'mask-less' friends.i wanna get stronger and tougher cos tough time dun last but tough man do.i've so many wants and i really wanna get them done.and most imptly,i'll cherish everything that i have right now and hope that it will last.but good things dun last and most importantly is that i dun wanna regret only when somethings happened and everything's gone within secs.and to all out there, cherish what you have...when the opportunity comes,take it cos its opportunities that dun come by easily.once u miss this stop,u'll nv noe whether u'll be able to get back here or go on to somewhere which gives you more hope.
as for Butters:
HAPPY BDAY my dearest ASH!so sry couldn't have something planned on time esp when im like so packed with so much stuff lately.grRrRRrrRRRRrr...feel so damn lousy as ur GL now man!hopefully we can have a mini gathering session this coming recess week!i'll start planning for it though i've like so much stuff to do again.but hey guys...i do cherish you this bunch of freshies man! all my trackers and crappers.Love you guys lots man and i hope our group will not die a natural death like some other OGs.and its this kinda friendships that kept me going and wanting more for future camps.and that could be the main reason why i re-run as a GL too.and its YOU,CO!!!thx for everything and all the great memories.really had fun co-ing with ya and thx for being there to give me support in everything.
as for RHUMBA- SU13 music:
i really missed the times we spent together in sports camp and i realli enjoyed all ur company.and thx to my Gls who inspired me to come back for more.though there's like a slight drift rite now,but i still feel that we're still quite bonded.i really dun wanna lose you guys like how other OGs died a natural death long long ago.we shall meetup at least once this recess and i think it'll be on sunday whereby dearest AIK should be back!i'll try and make some arrangement.hopefully it just pulls thru.
se7en vballers:
all i wan the girls team to noe is that you girls are strong and superstar material.but then again,vball is all abt being a team together.most of you have played with one another before as a team but do remember that there's not only that few of you.there's the rest in the team and to be exact,there's like 9 of you in the team now.hope you girls will just drop that superstar status and come together as a team.winning's not everything and i rather you girls train hard together and truly enjoy the entire process and let winning be just an additional bonus.and if you dun train together and dun put in the same effort that the rest is putting in,you're just being unfair to those that put in more.and dun regret that you ppl nv train together well enough when you lose 1 deciding game.and dun blame it on the rest and insufficient training or watever lame reasons human always give.
as for the guys.all i wan to see from you guys is just putting in even more effort in training.yes...some of you have done it but i would love to see more if we really wanna go somewhere.its not gonna be easy for us cos we ain't superstar material.we're just like flower buds.dun even noe if its gonna bloom or wat.no matter wat's the case.we shall just train hard together and enjoy the game together as a whole.its oki to lose and go back stronger.its definitely the case this year and i hope we realli can get somewhere.we dun have to have a whole team of superstars but all i want is a team of dedicated players all wanting to head in the same direction,working hard together to get there together with the entire team.i wanna see the fire in all of you and i only see it in some.hopefully after recess,we can successfully downsize and work even harder!
my life seems super screwed up.can i just unscrew everything quickly and assemble everything back in order.the question now is HOW LONG WILL I TAKE?and HOW WILL THE VARIOUS COMPONENTS AID OR AFFECT MY SPEED IN UNSCREWING AND ASSEMBLING THEM BACK TOGETHER?...DO I HAVE TO GIVE UP SOME COMPONENTS TO IMPROVE THE SITUATION OR DO I HAVE TO REPLACE CERTAIN PARTS TO GET EVERYTHING BACK PROPERLY?it just seems to be another round of trial and error session.will i ever get there?who will be there to see me thru or am i gonna go thru this all alone.i still dun get the answer...*lost in emotions...*
♥Oh, so vintage... 3:37 AM
