Tuesday, December 25, 2007
merry xmas to all my friends!!!
this xmas is definitely one that i'll never forget.not that i had a super duper wonderful one but its the xmas that made me realised quite a no of things.i definitely didn't enjoy it as much as before and probably that's gonna stay with me from now on...
i've neglected my friends and camp that grew up with me and i cant blame anyone for anything.i just felt so left out and its me that didn't really tried to join in.I just feel that its really time to move on and i've kinda outgrown this xmas celebration thingy.and as i've joined my camp friends for the celebration,it means that i've neglected another group of friends some where out there!i cant blame all the hall activities that's coming all at once during this period and stuff.sometimes i really wish that i can please everyone but whenever i find myself trying so hard to please everyone,im the DUMB ASS that suffers right here.mayb i should just stop trying to be the nice guy that please everyone!!!
im just upset of how things turned out to be like that.and as im thinking of that,will this repeat itself or will i just drift even further.is this the time to really let go of everything and let the new comers take over everything?will i still be around next year?this are the questions im asking myself right now which i cant give myself a definite answer.and i can assure you that i would have given a definite answer in the past.but things changed and i really cant find the right answer to this anymore.its really disturbing!
*perhaps...i just dun fit in anymore...*
♥Oh, so vintage... 3:40 AM
