Thursday, June 05, 2008
i saw how hard you work for it
i saw how you improved time n again
i saw how you fell once again
i saw how you pick yourself up from the mess
all i wanna say is you're not alone,i was just right beside you when all these happened
not matter what decision you're gonna make and whatever will be the outcome
all i wish for is that you'll be happy
and all i can do is i'll be always right beside you
3.3 for this sem.extremely disappointed with my results.there's not even an A at all.DAMN.perhaps i was just asking too much but i didn't expect not to perform up to expectations.seriously stress cos im getting further and further away from my sec upper!DAMNz.i always value friendship and having fun above my results and everything else can wait.but then again, there's this small part in me whereby i keep challenging myself and having high expectations of myself. and when expectations dun meet, i'll just be so frustrated. besides, i didn't expect to do this badly.and i seriously dun believe in all the crap that ppl always tell themselves that i'll do better next sem.i'll study earlier and work harder!and becos that damn result, i lost control of myself *in a non violent manner* and i got semi drunk last nite. 2nd time puking after drinks man or perhaps,not up to expectation results were just a facade to cover my unhappiness last night.but i dun blame it on my bud but i just blame it on myself with my inability to take care!i just screw every single god damn thing.arghx...sports camp coming soon but i dun feel any excitement at all.arghx.its getting dull and boring and perhaps what others said must be truth.im gettin more and more pro-hall.im more excited over hall FOC than over sports camp.i seriously lost fire in alot of things.i believe its just a dumb excuse to be lazy and relac one corner.its more of learning the serve the right master?but well...rest assure im not serving hall because of the reason i wan a room.its becos of the fact that i have a team of good vballer frens.im part of the team whether im given a room or not.and we're expanding.that's the kind of friendship which not everyone can provide me with.thank se7en vballers.*when you are in it, look out of it.then look in again. and u'll realised how fortunate you are*
♥Oh, so vintage... 6:47 PM
