Oh, so vintage?

Sunday, August 10, 2008

arghx.im feeling like shit now.feeling sick and i have so many things at the back of my mind!its really killing me right now with so many problems surfacing at the wrong time.worse of all,family problem!its just not me to share this kind thing openly but im realli tired already.to this point of exploding!i cannot take all this anymore.have you tot abt how im suppose to face you and the rest?and well,you just come up with this kinda stun when im half way thru university!i really dunno where to hide my face.i wanna be independant but the way u're doing things and putting me in a tough spot makes it worse.and pls pls dun force it on me man,i realli can do unimaginable things.how do you wan me to continue studying in peace with no worries when u're doing all these.arghx...cant i just enjoy the last 2 years of uni before i head out to society and work!!!i HATE THIS!!!

back to sch,im feeling the pressure on me too.self inflicted i would say.im on the verge of dropping out of sec lower!i cannot accept this fact and i dun think i deserve anything lower than this.im finding it hard to cope now and with all the stuns u're pulling on me,how can i leave everything here in sg to go for GIP?besides...money is an issue too!DAMN it.im kinda losing my minor too and i realli cannot bear to let it go.i must focus and come back to reality!at this point in life.i suddenly feel that i cant really cope with everything myself anymore.hidding all these problems that no one sees and know.im really tired...i have a gut feeling that im drowning again.its still at the early stages but well who knows wat's gonna happen?omg...will i just find someone that i can share all this with?i hope soon man...

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