Sunday, April 05, 2009
im really amazed and i like it.it's like opening up doors to a brand new world.seeing and knowing how others feel.getting different perspectives and widening my view.thank you very much.
this weekend wasn't really good.going home proves to be something very wrong.suddenly i just felt like shit and i really dun like it. im feeling miserable cause i started to make comparisons.but then again, who doesn't compare? and i seriously think i didn't make an unfair comparison which make me feel more miserable. is that the kind of life i'll wan my children to have in the future?what kinda parents do you wanna be?arghx...
during this IA period,it really got me into thinking about what i really wanna do when i graduate. When i came into NTU,i told myself i wouldn't wanna go into the engineering field. But after having such a fruitful experience, everything's possible! i'm worried about how fast i can clear my debts after i graduate,im concerned about what kinda job i should apply for?Should i go for Keppel's scholarship or should i go for a MNC oil rig company?or should i go into other fields beside marine and offshore?there so many questions and i secretly pray for a inner voice to tell me where i should go.on top of that,i also secretly pray that i'll meet HER.hehe...
3 more days to application deadline...as the day draws nearer, i feel more certain that i'm ready to go. the sense of loss doesn't seem so significant anymore and i hope that i'll be able to start anew else where. i need to be more discipline and optimistic!i'm trying...i can and i will.
*LIFE'S TOUGH.I'M TOUGHER!!!*
♥Oh, so vintage... 11:27 PM
