Thursday, May 28, 2009
today was a total reenactment of wat happened afew mths back!Y THE FUCK DID U ALLOW THE FLYER TO TOUCH THE FUCKING GROUND!i totally saw myself standing back into the shoes of shunyong!LIKE TOTALLY.i felt so fucking useless at that time and it was all too late.it was so heartbreaking to see her down on the floor!it brought me to think that if ever im really ready to learn to do proper,safe cheerleading. Isit it complacency that brought abt this?perhaps...i've never let my flyers down on the floor before.HOW THE FUCK can i just do it this time round?arghx...totally hate myself!all i can do is blame no one but myself.Have u freaking forgotten that the top flyer is my top prioritY!arghx arghx arghx...ARE U READY TO GO ON FROM HERE?ARE YOU FREAKING SURE?
best thing is...i freaking pull my muscle during a toe touch today!DAMN IT...and i seriously hope it wont affect the com this sat and sun as well as dun bring me trouble for the retiring adventure race.Its not gonna be easy and i know it esp after running x physique.i think my physical is really going down already!U're no longer at ur peak MAN!
love the worse in me to get the best out of me.i totally agree with this.but then again,m i doing it?i really dunno and im seriously lost!i've so many things to juggle that i like to complain alot nowadays.Yes,im not the only one that's busy but i just need to complain.arghx...and sometimes, listening to these kinda nonesense actually made me question myself if these kinda guys are really on earth right now?really nonesense.but when its my turn,will i be like them?OMG....i cannot imagine.but i would insist that i wont be standing in their shoes at all cos its freaking disgusting and really show how weak u r!like SERIOUSLY!
im beginning to question myself if i should do this.haizz...i really dunno!i dun even noe where im standing right now!its like a ship out in the open sea without a lighthouse!it sucks.like totally.
♥Oh, so vintage... 2:50 AM
