Sunday, October 11, 2009
its once again one of those emo nights whereby i feel super duper horrible. there's so much happening here and there that i think im really going crazy.i never ever felt this horrible before.
it has come to my attention that while others are improving like crazy,im actually moving backwards.I really hate that and its not wat i wan. Im happy that you guys have improve but sad to say,i've really like lost everything.TOTALLY! so wat the hell is wrong with me man.i really have no idea.i really hate this and i really feel like giving it up when i feel that my body is falling apart.
its been a tough week for you i noe and its gonna get tougher. sometimes, i really dunno what's running thru ur mind. Its really very sianz to see you get irritated over Z and i know to a certain extent,its partly due to my presence. i just hope that i could help alleviate ur burden and be there to give u support whenever u need it. however, these hot and cold moments really send me hanging in the mid of nowhere. though i pretty wanna talk abt this but then i knew this isn't the right time to give you even more undue stress and pressure with z coming all over. i really dunno what else i can do now to make u feel better and im totally at a lost right now.
besides that, im totally disappointed in you guys.TOTALLY...i really dunno if i could still face you guys like before but im disappointed with how you guys couldn't handle such problems and even think of the consequences of carrying out these actions. I really cant believe that you guys could be manipulated to this extent. I really m disappointed. Have you spare a tot for the team? Hall cheer is just HALL cheer.Do you really have to go to that extent? why not you guys just join cheerobics this year as well?
i think i should stop mj-ing!have been losing big time lately. 11 consecutive sessions! i really dunno wat the hell is wrong with me man.
*i wanna get my TTH back.i wanna get my str lib back.i wanna get everything back!!!arghx...PLEASE DUN GIVE WAY!*and think of it,should i join the group stunts this year?do i have the ability and time to train?arghx...
♥Oh, so vintage... 3:53 AM
