Monday, October 19, 2009
this is sucha joke!after 6 cans of asahi,im just high and still suffering from insomnia. i dunno wat i'm thinking but im just not myself today.
im really really very upset. i really wat to do and im really disappointed!you're very impt to me but i just dun seem to be impt to you at all! i just feel that you treat others better than you treat me!m i really that bad?i nv blame you for that and i just wish that you would just give me some response be it good or bad. i dun like the uncertainty with you not giving any response at all.
you asked me what happened but it was really the wrong time to asked abt it with other s ard. and im disappointed cos you did that becos others asked u to! you actually dun have to if you dun feel like it.i never wanted to force you.all i wish that you'll be happy. As for now,somehow i feel that you've not given up ur past and with all that's happening lately,i just feel that we're drifting apart. im really heartbroken but i guess u wont noe it afterall.
suffering from a mega headache noW.but i just cant get to sleep!it hurts,esp deep down my heart.arghx...would it be better to leave u alone right now?deep down i still noe that i still love you but i just cant bear to see u upset. i dun like to see a undecisive you.i would rather you reject me right in my face if it make things easier for you. i rather i'll be the one that suffer than we suffer together with all the pressure coming down on you.
*im sorry i have to leave.i just wish for you to be happy.that's all for now.*
~you're the first girl that managed to break me down totally.but i dun blame you for im weak when it comes to you!~
♥Oh, so vintage... 4:27 AM
